Sunday, January 30, 2005
I'm so bored n sad. Using my sis com now... my damn com is still spoilt... dunno when will i send it for repair. Finally got to see the dentist yesterday morning... after 3 months... i forgot about my previous appointment... my teeth are all going out of place.
After that, i went to Orchard to meet huihui. Her sweet terrence treat me to Swensens... ate chicken baked rice... thanks alot. Next time i treat u kiez. We went to Far East to shop shop n shop for chinese new year stuff. Hahaa... huihui spent more than me... i bought a top from mango (sob, but huihui say not worth it), bought a jeans skirt from Candle n a pair of purple shoes. Brought huihui to "about"... cuz 'e clothes there very nice but very expensive... n huihui alwayz say i muz be mad to shop there... at the end she bought a red skirt from there... so so nice... den i keep telling her very very very nice... irresistible nice... price also very nice... den after that she say she got a new place to shop... huihui join my crazy "about" club le. Haiz... but all my things are here n there... haven even bought a full set yet. Dearie accompanied us to shop yst... he wanted to meet Gabriel to play battlefield... but at the end didn't. We waited for terrence at the control station... meamwhile i was telling dearie that huihui spent more than me... and tried carrying her things, it was so heavy... at the end dearie said it was because i was too picky... what the???... supposed to be huihui spending too much is bad. Huihui was happily laughing at me. ARghhh!!! Nevertheless, had fun shopping with hui yst.
On the way home... quarreled with dearie... cuz i dunno how to explain to him y i can't click along with my dad... i was so sad... worse of all... i tott maybe giving that card to him will make things better. Never knew i was such a failure... dearie asked me to open the card but i wanted him to read it at home, moreover, he wasn't in a good mood... so i didn't open n said that he wasn't in a good mood... it made dearie angry, so he alighted at Woodlands n left me alone. Tried so hard to control my tears all the way home. Felt so miserable.
Today think i'll be at home the entire day... so lonely n bored... n i can't use this com for long... n my tv downstairs is spoilt. Wanted to go to the gym n the swimming pool to tan this morning... but i'm too lazy. No motivation... i need someone to accompany me.
*Hope 2day will be a better day*
1:17 PM
Thursday, January 27, 2005
I wanna change blogskin... but i still can't one that i reallie like... one that is suitable for me to post my photos. It has been a while since i last post pictures. Rather lazy to do. Got a number of reports recently... urgh... dun like reports.
Damn it... my freaking com is not working again... guess it's 'e processor prob again. Haiz... have to bring the com down to sim lim again. =( =( =( . Had to do my report yst nite... den i had to use my sis com... wah... i was amazed by my sis com after upgrading. The icons so different and so cool. The appearance of the special edition of window xp is so freaking nice. Hahaaa. Use her com till 2am in the morning to do that sickening report.
So pissed off by someone in the morning... so damn selfish & inconsiderate. Argh forget it... it alwayz liddat.
Yeah... achieved something this morning... dearie Jiarui accompanied me in 'e play.
Fran: "Hey rui, is you boyfriend rich and handsome?"
Rui: "No! Den how about you?"
Fran: "No... some people just like to spout nonsense that we like to know rich and handsome guys."
Rui: "Yah lar. If have, count how many rich and handsome guys around us."
The stupid brainless idiotic act chio bitch doesn't think before she spreads nonsense. Now she like to act like a total bitch... put on makeup (long eyebrows) which she have neva, change her dress sense (no more cartoon characters), get a bf (er-xin). Oh please... for heaven sake, dun think u're a princess... u are SICK in the mind.
Okie... i shall go look for nice blogskins... hopefully i can find one.
Dearie... i can't wait to see u tonite... love ya. MucksSss!
11:47 AM
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Happi burfdae to me! Happi burfdae to me!
Happi burfdae to me~
Happy burfdae to me...
It was my burfdae yesterday. I'm 19 oredi! Haha... I took MC... cuz i woke up so late for school. Moreover, dearie wanted to accompany me. Stayed overnight at dearie's place the day before yst. When the clock hits 11.59, I received my first birthday msg from Royston, followed by Joel's call at 12 sharp, wishing me Happy Birthday. Of course, my cutie sweet honey baby was beside me at that time... thanks dearie. Love ya loads!!! My dearie stayed up till so late... wanted to wake me up the next morning so that i wun be late for school... poor thing... sori dear. Thanks dearies for all the sweet messages. Love u all so much. Wanted to watch "Shall We Dance" yesterday... but couldn't make it in time for the 5.30pm show... cuz had to see the doc and go home earlier... cuz mummy bought for me birthday cake.
Hahaa... i lied to the doc that i had a hangover... den doc asked me wat did i drink... opps... i wasn't prepared... anyway... juz name a few... hee. Den he say... u dun drink achohol one is it? Den i said... "Yah... i dun drink." Hahahaaa... i made a big lie. After getting the MC... dearie went home with me... got the nice mango cake choosen by my sista. Mummy, Daddy and granny gave me hongbao. My sista gave me a necklace n a pair of earrings.
Dearie took the train with me to school today. Was hoping that he could eat breakfast with me... but it's okie. Yoke Huey bought curry puffs for everyone... so nice of her... thank u. Got report to submit tmr again... 'e old man is mad... alwayz want us to submit a long report within a few days... argh... i haven start doing... gotta start after lunch.
Thanks dearies...(MoonJiaruiJaneShiHuiYokeHueyEileenEstherKennethRoystonSusanWeiliang)
for the lovely mao mao jacket... it's my favourite.
Thanks to rui, roy n ken for remembering that i like this jacket.
Love all of u!!!
1:17 PM
Sunday, January 23, 2005
21st January (Friday)
It Hari Raya... HOLIDAY! Yeah... escape from ARDC. Had to wake up early and left dearie's house to meet my dear ying ying, aunt n mum at Orchard. Haven gone shopping for a long long time... cuz i'm so broke. I tott it will be a good shopping day... but it turns out the other way. Boring day... so crowded at Orchard... I can't even find anything i like. Shop the entire day... but didn't get much stuff. Only bought a green halter from Zara n bought my liquid foundation. Think i prefer to shop alone... so i can find more stuff. After shopping... went to my aunt's hse for dinner... and went home soon after.
22nd January (Saturday)
Shopping day again! Meet my favourite aunt at Bugis... hahaa... I was late as usual. Went to tinun for lunch... ate fried beef udon. My aunt wanted to buy a 256 memory stick for her cam.... so we went to the Sony Gallery... omg... it was freaking expensive as compared to the one i bought i Japan... exactly the same... i bought less than S$120 (7680 yen)... it cosy $170 here. She regretted it so badly... cuz i actually ask her to buy at Japan also. We went to look for a small pouch to keep our cam. Hahaa... she bought 2 small bag from littlematchgirl... 1 for my digi cam n the other for hers. So happy. Went to V8 to see the memory stick hoping that it will be cheaper... nah... it's the same. No choice she had to get it. Shop around Bugis... hahaa... met Don at POA... he's working there... omg... i actually called him. Nothing much at Bugis... so we made our way to Orchard.
I was going to meet dearie tonite... wanted to watch "Shall We Dance"... but we're broke... check my account n it was running low... my aunt was so nice... she gave me $50 so i can watch movie with dearie. So sad... "Shall We Dance" tickets were sold out. So dearie booked Elektra at 6.55pm at PS. My aunt bought me my birthday pressie... my Shiseido Luminizing Powery Foundation $76 and Eye Liner $46. Omg... I was so happy cuz i am so broke to replenish my cosmetics... but felt damn guilty. She's the best aunt in the world. Bought a pants and belt from m)phosis $72 plus. Opps... think my mum gonna kill me. After that, I walked to PS to meet my dearest. After the movie... wanted to eat dinner... but dunno where. Far East got cheaper food... but it was so far. Den we walked towards Orchard... we were reaching Far East Plaza unknowingly... cuz we said it was so far initially n didn't want to go there... wanted to eat at Esteler 77... but it was closed... so dearie say let's get out of town... i was so hungry by that time. So we went to the food court below scotts. Dearie stayed over at my place.
23rd January (Today)
Dearie woke up at 12 plus. We went to Yew Tee for lunch... dearie had to leave after that cuz he had floorball game and ref today. I came home... tried to do my sickening project... so reluctantly... haiz... nothing much achieve. Fell asleep... but so many ppl keep calling n msging... i was so so aggitated... I want to sleep! Dearie... *Missing ya*. Can't wait for u to reach home soon... so i can hear ur voice.
9:05 PM
Sunday, January 16, 2005
hey hey... omg... i haven been blogging... keep posting photos and photos and photos. I shall start recalling all the way back from 7th January... can't really remember much. But i'll try my best...
7th January (Friday)
On that day... huihui was a bit mad mad... she wanted to eat carrot cake so badly... so Jane and I accompanied her all the way to YCK hawker centre to eat carrot cake. I wanted to drink the lemon lime there... but both of them didn't allow me to... cuz later scared i pain pain. At the end I drank Sugar Cane. After that, we walked back to school by the gate near the sports hall n walked up the "Chang Cheng" long flight of steps. That day got test. Hehee... I managed to score 30/40, but wasn't quite satisfied cuz the questions i get is those dat didn't appear in the notes. After the test, we went to causeway point to celebrate Kenneth's belated birthday. His actual birthday was on 6th January. Happy 19th birthday! Yeah.. we went Pizza Hut... den i insisted in squeezing the 6 of us to a small table. Hahaa... cosy cosy mah. So my dearies all give in to me. We ate curry chicken pizza and hawaiian pizza... wanted the cheese crust for the curry chicken one... but i think the waiter made a mistake with our order... at the end it was the sausage one. EeeEeeee.
After the dinner... they accompanied me to Bits and Pieces to pierce another ear hole. I only decided last minute... cuz i was feeling very terrible that day... wanted to use the physical pain to relieve the psychological pain. I quarreled with dearie in the morning... the gunbound + doorbell incident. If that damn doorbell didn't ring at that sickening moment... nothing would have happen. Anyway, I felt really really upset that entire day... nothing could make me brush that aside that day... standing somewhere quiet all by myself... tearing badly. Argh, it's over... dun wanna think abt it anymore.
After piercing my ear, we went to the stuff the beads into the soft toy shop den went to the arcade... played the answer questions game. Hahaa... Jiarui won. Den we played basketball. Jane and I won this time... Yeah! I played the super kiddy shoot water thingy.
We spent 2 hrs at the staircase outside the arcade... taking 50 over photos. Phtos Photos n Photos! I didn't feel like going home that day... so they all accompanied me till nearly 10. Took alot of stupid looking photos... but reallie had fun taking those stupid faces and actions.
8th January (Saturday)
Dear dear had to ref 2 games that day... and it only ended at 6pm. Feeling so so lonely+lonely+lonely n bored that day. I could only meet dear dear at Yew Tee after his ref. Felt so miserable... haven see my dear for a few days. I stayed over at dearie's place that nite.
9th January (Sunday)
Baby had game at 12pm that day. I couldn't get up in time. So I stayed at dearie's place and waited till he came home. I cooked the rice before dear dear reach home. Dear dear fried beef with onions for lunch. Yummy yummy.
12th January (Wednesday)
Yeah. It's our 4th month anniversary. OppS... it didn't came across my mind that day... cuz so many things happen the few days b4. Anyway... yeah dearie... we've been together for 4 months oredi! I love u sooo much! Dear dear cooked Cabonara Pasta for me that day. Yummy yummy. Love dear dear's cooking. Thanks dear. After dinner, dear brought me to the garden behind to play sparklers... only played 2. Had to go home after that... cuz had to do the Konnyaku jellies for the tsunami fund raising gala event. Haha.. so i made the jellies midnight.
13th January (Thursday)
Tsunami fund raising day. I had to carry the 3 heavy boxes of jellies to school. My heand was going to break. Had to set up the stall to sell the Konnyaku jellies. The jellies were all sold by 1pm. Omg... someone actually bid Fandi Ahmad's jersey for $415. Went home early to do my report and website. I tott i was not going to meet dear dear that day. But I was very happy cause dear dear say he may be meeting me after i complete my website. So dear dear arranged to meet me at 7.45pm at Yishun to watch Aviator. Hahaa... I was late again. Anyway, we ahad dinner at long john silver before the movie which starts at 8.55pm. The movie ended rather late... nearly 12am. We were gonna catch the last few trains back. Dearie stayed over at my place that nite. When we reached home... I wanted to make my website look better... but opps... i made dearie angry cuz i told him earlier on that i have completed it. Sorry.
14th January (Friday)
I woke up early in the morning to complete my tep summary report... the flowchart and the last question while dearie was still sleeping. We left the house abt 1pm... went to Yew Tee to have our lunch... headed to school after that. I was so upset that day with my freaking spoiled tep summary report word document in my diskette. I couldn't open the file... appear the sickening msg "... serious error while opening the document..."... i knew it means the end when that freaking msg appear... cuz it happened before. I cried in fsrc... my lovely frens in fsrc consoled me. After school.. took bus 86 with liyan to sengkang.. gonna meet dearie at Punggol Plaza. So happy to see dearie. We went to ntuc to buy the ingredients... yeah... dear dear gonna cook again for me... dear dear cooked Bak Ku Teh. Yummie... tasty... heavenly... good. I love you dear! Thanks. Later, dear dear brought me to play sparklers again! Took a couple of photos. Stayed over at dearie's place that nite. Dearie made my day better! =)
15th January (Saturday)
Dear dear got to referee at NTU today. We left the house at 12 plus, but my silly dearie forgot to bring his handphone... so he went back to get it. When we reach the bus stop... he realised he for got to bring his whistle... Hahaa... see dear... u are 'e last one. We took the train, dear alighted at Boon Lay while I went back to CCK. Yeah... i found another copy of my report in my com... so happy. After dear's referee session end... we went to westmall & had our dinner at Burger King... hee... asked dear dear a few questions...
1. what was the first fast food restaurant we first ate together?
2. what did he wore when he first saw me?
3. what was i wearing the first time he saw me at zouk?
4. what was 'e first chinese food we ate together?
5. what was 'e first movie we watch together....
blah blah~~
After that, we went to causeway point cuz dear dear wanted to eat MOS burger there. So we went there. We went home after that.
16th January (Sunday)
I stayed at home 'e entire day. Edit a few photos that day. Didn't get to meet dearie... cuz he had game at tampines that evening.
17th January (Monday)
First day at ARDC today. I was late today... reached abt 9am. I was so pissed with the weather. Wore my white colour pants.. it was raining... damn it... my pants had so many black spots on it after walking out. I was so so irritated by it... at the end i called home to get my maid to bring out my levis jeans to the bus stop. Urgh... i missed my bus... n worse... she brought the wrong levis jeans... wanted 'e darker colour. But no choice oredi. Took the bus to CCK and change into my jeans. When i reached school... i didn't dare to go into the room... cuz the sup was inside. Was so dumb... should have went in... wasted another unnecessary 15 mins. Haiz... not as good as wat we expect it to be. I miss FSRC so much. Very much retricted over here at ARDC as compared to FSRC. Anyway, rui, royston and I made our way to causeway point after sch and meet my baby there. We ate dinner at MOS burger and went to watch "Omen" after school. The show not scary at all one... quite difficult to understand... but dear dear tried to explain to me. We went to the Pasa Malam for a while. Went home after that.
18th January (Tuesday)
Met up with dear after school at Punggol Plaza... didn't noe wat to eat for dinner. Went to NTUC... but didn't get anything there cuz dearie say the stuff he wants dun have. So we made our way to Compasspoint... had our dinner at MOS burger again. Ate the spicy chilly hotdog set. OoooOO... hot hot. We went to the super market... bought alot of things as usual... enjoy shopping trips with dearie to the supermarket. Deardear bought me the cute cute soda bottle drink... hee. Dearie bought powder almond jelly packet... soba and udon... den say he wanna make sparkling jelly for me... so get the rasberry jelly powder... sour cream... alot more. We went home after that. Stayed over at dearie place that nite. Deardear made almond jelly... yea!
19th January (Wednesday)
Went to school with janejane in the morning. Haiz the sickening raymond wong nag nag everyday abt puntuality n keep asking us to read the newspaper abt US. Think his whole head will turn white before he turns 45. Yeah.. anyway... managed to get out of that boring place at 9 plus to help out NYP Openhouse. Quite little people during our shift... so only guided a group with Hwa Qi. Played heart attack and donkey in the seminar room while waiting for people to come. Sob... jiarui hit me so hard in the forfeit... pain pain. But nvm... u shall be forgiven.
After lunch... omg... guess who i met! JOEL CHONG! Juz outside the shopping arcade when i was gonna disturb my dear joreen... i was soooo surprise... haven seen him for ages. Omg... again we found out that the world is so small after toking...
It started from him saying that he wanna get into Sports and Wellness.
So i told him my dearie was from there.
Den he said he wanted to play floorball... hahaa... again...
i told him my dearie plays floorball and also in national team.
Den he was like really ah... den i said yah...
so he say he noes a few of the players...
and ask me to ask dearie if he noes 'timothy quek'.
Ahhhah... my mind scanned through the name...
and the surname "QUEK"...
isn't that dearie's ex's brother???
So i told him.
Den i said he got alot of siblings...
and he completed my sentence...
'Jill Quek' and 'Matha Quek'.
So Jill is his coach in ITE Mac.
Imagine... my ex noes my dearie's ex's bro n sis...
Den he ask wat's dearie's name...
replied 'Daryl'
So he is the one! Came across his name.
Den I showed him my dearie's pic.
Hmmm... he looks familiar...
den he ask does he plays for NYP floorball...
den i said yah...
no wonder!
Saw him in the match btw NYP and ITE Mac...
Yeah... dearie played in that match...
Hahaa...
Such a coincidence!
Anyway... he's still the same... still as fun-loving as ever.
Went back to the room after lunch... played "7 up"... the forfeit was to drink that terribly awful yucky sick Luo Han tea. Omg... it's super yucky. Urgh... i had to drink a few times. Hee... thanks to the hero "andrew"... helped me drank once. Haha... poor him... got hit "there" by the bottle. So funnie. Anyway... all of us had fun. I told dearie that i saw my ex... den he said 'ANGRY!'... but i noe he's not... juz simply jealous hoh? I love my dear dear to be jealous... so it means tat he loves me! Hahahaa. Thick-skinned rite? Dun worry my dear... u'r the only one in my heart now. After school... went to dearie hse... dear dear made "Chile" for dinner... yummie yummie yum yum... delicious... thanks my dear.
20th January (Thursday)
WoOooHh... i finally type till this day. Have been saving this entry as draft since January 16. Sob... i forgot to bring my ai xin lunch to school. Soooooooo Sad... really wanted to eat that for lunch. Sorry dearie. Helped out at NYP openhouse today again. More ppl today... guided 2 groups. So tired. Yeah... drew on the ginger bread for dear dear... nice nice. Huihui's balloon was taken away... sad sad... i sayang u kiez. Later, brought hui hui n moon... wanted to make the ginger bread again... but no more oredi. So we ended up sewing a heart... our dear huihui so cute... dunno how to turn over... dunno how to insert the cotton into the heart... n dunno how to sew the rite way. Hahaa... her heart is out of shape... dun worry next time i teach u kiez... den u can mend clothes for ur Terrence. Bought egg tarts and water chestnut drink for deardear. Left the school early with huihui. Haiz... shouldn't have... had to make a long way to dearie's place cuz of the fire at Jalan Kayu. Took bus 86... den the road was block... the bus had to go straight instead of turning left... so alighted at the next stop. The place only got 70, 103 and 854... can't even take any of them. Another ger and i happen to face the same problem... when we saw the road was clear... we walked back to a 86 bus stop and took another 86. Damn it... reaching another traffic light... a bus conductor came up the bus to inform that we can't pass Jalan Kayu... wat the hell. Waste so much money. Ended up at the sengkang interchange... and took 83 from there. Yeah... finally after a long long journey... I see my baby. We made an achievement today! Hahaa... finally clean the house... we vacuum and mop the floor, wash the fan today. Now the house feels much cleaner. Dearie cooked udon for me for dinner. Fell asleep while watching American Idol... hahaa. Woke up went to take my shower n went out with dearie at 1am plus. Went to punggol plaza... we ate ice cream... I ate solero ice cream... dear dear ate walls ice cream. So sad... nothing is comparable to dearie's ice cream. Reached home... dearie make egg mayo. It's 4am plus oredi... gonna go to bed soon... nitez.
9:42 PM
Sweetie Baby Cutie Yummy... I want you forever n ever n ever. MuckSssS! Taken on 14th January 2005. 
9:38 PM
Baby brought me to the garden to play sparklers... had fun with dear dear. Taken on 14th January 2005.
5:35 PM
Dearies... friends 4eva!
11:17 AM
Royston...Kenneth...Jane...Fransca...Shihui... we are powerful!!!
3:10 AM
Monday, January 10, 2005
Taken with my lovely dearies... on 7th January at Causeway Point... we were celebrating Kenneth's 19th birthday on that day. This one not very nice... cuz not much inspiration... hmpf.
12:49 AM
Sunday, January 09, 2005
He's my companion, my lover, my baby, my dearie, my hero, my dearest, my superman, my dear dear, my baobei, my prince charming, my darling, my cutest & most handsome boy boy, my carebear's favourite ... n it goes on... and on... and on. He's everything to me. Loving you always. -Huggies-
7:35 PM
Dearie... I will alwayz love you. 'e pictures were taken on the 5th of January. This is the white version. Dunnoe which one is nicer... so did 2 different colour combination.
7:27 PM
Thursday, January 06, 2005
It's another tiring day... i'm back home after a long day in school. Missin my dearie badly. Couldn't get to see him after sch... but i noe dearie is very tired. Have been playing Crazy Taxi in sch 'e entire day. I managed to complete the round... but so dumb... din enter my name... so had to replay... so freaking difficult to get to the destination. So many things left undone... reports... personal selling... personal webpage... study for tmr's test. I have no mood to start on all. I hate tis sickening feeling. I wish everything is not as bad as wat i think. Perhaps i'm overly sensitive... but still... 'e messages discombobulate me. I juz wanna erase everything from my mind.. I dun wanna think at all. I'm mentally tired... exhausted... drained out. The prob muz have lie with me... probably i'm not good enuff. Damn it... I dun wanna noe.
My dearie rui have been so stressed up recently... facing so many obstacles. I pray that she will get through this soon. I noe she's feeling really awful... really sad to see her in this state. Juz to let u noe dear rui... i'll alwayz be there for you. Dun think so much kiez.... maybe we'll all juz feel better by not knowing anything. Curse all the f**king relationship problems.
7:39 PM
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Tanning on a rainy day in school...
2:16 AM
I'm soo tired... physically... mentally... in a loss.
I'm not okie at all... i can't help it but to feel this way.
*tearing so badly*...
desperate for help...
but no one understands... even myself.
I do trust u...
but i'm losing faith in myself...
doubting my own ability to keep ur heart.
Feeling so weak...
can't bear to lose u...
'e thought of it...
simply frightens me...
how can i live without u...
i dun wanna think anymore...
juz noe that...
i'll always love u...
1:51 AM
Sunday, January 02, 2005
It's a brand new year! Happy New Year to u my frens! May all ur wishes come true. May all girls become prettier n sexier while guys become more macho n handsome.
Last friday was New Year Eve. Sch ended at 1pm. But surprising, I went to school. Luckily, I did. Mr Mervyn Chew went up to the room and checked the attendence. Quite a number of stopover mates didn't go to school since it was only a half day... they had to take MC. Never did we expect him to check cuz he have never ever check the attendence. I think from now on... have to go sch earlier... dun wanna get caught for the last 2 weeks.
After school last friday... went to dearie's place. We booked tickets for Kung Fu Hustle at PS at 6.40pm. We went to Punggol Plaza to have our lunch and did some shopping in the supermarket. I enjoy shopping at the supermarket with dear dear. Dear dear bought raw popcorn seeds to make popcorn for me... cuz i told him Jane say can make homemade popcorn... den he said he did it in home economics. After that.. we headed back home.
We were almost late for our movie. Fortunately, the show started rather late. During the show... Gabriel called dearie to say that he and the rest of the SW frens should be going over to dearie's place for mini countdown. After the movie, dearie n i went to Carrefour to get drinks and some food for dinner n the celebration.
When we reached home... dearie made Cheesy Macoroni for dinner.. yummy. Thanks dearie. I love to eat dear dear's home cooked food. Soon after, Gabriel arrived with his girlfriend, followed by the others... let me see if i can still remember the names... Ginny & her bf, Lawrence, Nigel, Al & Sherwin. Dearie taught us a new game... but I still dunno how to play. In the midst of the game... a while after 12am... someone called dearie. It is undeniable that I was very much affected and upset... but I dun blame dearie. It was juz on my side that i was a bit sensitive... partly becuz of wat happened the day before. I attempted to drown the saddness by gulping the rest of the Heiniken n the miller... but i didn't want to look awful... so I was still dead sobber. But i noe dearie was by my side... he brought carebear out for me to hug... I felt better after a while. We played bluff... but i couldn't clear my cards. Dearie was in the kitchen busy making pizza and popcorn for us. After the game, they watched "Once Upon a time in Mexico"... but I wasn't interested cuz it was all shooting scenes. Dearie's friends were drunk... vomiting continuously everywhere... talking loads of rubbish. Poor dearie had to clean up the mess... his fren vomited onto his hand... yucks. I went to bed with carebear first. Dearie joined me after the show... smelling with strong alcohol. Everyone knocked out that nite.
We woke up late afternoon... played text twist with dearie... den headed to Causeway point for dinner. I went home after that.
Today, didn't get to meet dearie... but it's okie... let me miss him more... so i'll be even happier the next time i meet him. I stayed home the entire day... it's has been so long since I last stayed at home alone for the whole day. I edited a few photos today... nearly forgotten about "My fairytale world" which I started doing on Christmas Eve. I was looking madly for a font that i like, find till i was falling asleep in front of the com. My parents, bro n sis went to my aunt's house for dinner. Espen bought his gf home. Mummy say his gf pretty... hmmm.. wonder how she look like in person... only saw her on his friendster photo. Ying Ying jie jie is back from aussie... gonna meet up with her soon!
Haiz... my maid spoilt my halter top when ironing it. Sad sad... cuz i only wore it twice. But can't do anything about it... juz haveto accept. Played gunbound with dearie after dinner. I was so lousy in it... keep shooting wrongly... got scolded from dear dear. It's okie... dear dear juz want me to improve.
Lotsa things to do... need to submit the Festive report and the "Leading Fulfilling Lives" report... Investment game starting tomorrow. Tuesday need to bring Konnyaku jelly to school to raise fund for Tsunami crisis.
Gotta sleep soon... otherwise dearie will be upset. I miss you... Nitez...
11:29 PM
My fairytale world... with my Prince Charming
Dearie... u r truly my Prince Charming... u r all that I ever dream of.
I juz wanna spend the rest of my life with u... dun wanna ever lose you.
U mean 'e world to me... u mean everything to me...
having u in my life... is the best thing that have ever happen to me.
Nothing & no one else can ever replace your position in my heart... not even carebear.
I love u soooo much.
10:48 PM
28th December 2004
2:22 PM
Hey Jane...sorry for the late photo post.
Yeah... finally have ur face in my blog!
Once again... Happy 20th Birthday!
The photos were taken on Jane's 20th birthday on 'e 28th December 04.
We were celebrating her birthdae at Fish & Co at Glasshouse.
Moon Jiarui Royston Kenneth Daryl and I were there.
Shihui didn't join us cuz.... (well, we all noe). Nvm... u are forgiven.
We ordered 3 sets of seafood platter for 2 persons and 1 set of seafood platter for 1 person.
Nice ambience... with song dedication for Jane.
At the end... there was a small cake for Jane... it was so delicious... all of us had 2 mouths of it. Silly rui wanted all of us to take a pic with the cake with THUMBS UP.
Everyone did it... really funnie...
especially my dearie... look at the bottom right of the pic above.
All of us had a memorable nite!
2:10 PM
Sunday, January 30, 2005
I'm so bored n sad. Using my sis com now... my damn com is still spoilt... dunno when will i send it for repair. Finally got to see the dentist yesterday morning... after 3 months... i forgot about my previous appointment... my teeth are all going out of place.
After that, i went to Orchard to meet huihui. Her sweet terrence treat me to Swensens... ate chicken baked rice... thanks alot. Next time i treat u kiez. We went to Far East to shop shop n shop for chinese new year stuff. Hahaa... huihui spent more than me... i bought a top from mango (sob, but huihui say not worth it), bought a jeans skirt from Candle n a pair of purple shoes. Brought huihui to "about"... cuz 'e clothes there very nice but very expensive... n huihui alwayz say i muz be mad to shop there... at the end she bought a red skirt from there... so so nice... den i keep telling her very very very nice... irresistible nice... price also very nice... den after that she say she got a new place to shop... huihui join my crazy "about" club le. Haiz... but all my things are here n there... haven even bought a full set yet. Dearie accompanied us to shop yst... he wanted to meet Gabriel to play battlefield... but at the end didn't. We waited for terrence at the control station... meamwhile i was telling dearie that huihui spent more than me... and tried carrying her things, it was so heavy... at the end dearie said it was because i was too picky... what the???... supposed to be huihui spending too much is bad. Huihui was happily laughing at me. ARghhh!!! Nevertheless, had fun shopping with hui yst.
On the way home... quarreled with dearie... cuz i dunno how to explain to him y i can't click along with my dad... i was so sad... worse of all... i tott maybe giving that card to him will make things better. Never knew i was such a failure... dearie asked me to open the card but i wanted him to read it at home, moreover, he wasn't in a good mood... so i didn't open n said that he wasn't in a good mood... it made dearie angry, so he alighted at Woodlands n left me alone. Tried so hard to control my tears all the way home. Felt so miserable.
Today think i'll be at home the entire day... so lonely n bored... n i can't use this com for long... n my tv downstairs is spoilt. Wanted to go to the gym n the swimming pool to tan this morning... but i'm too lazy. No motivation... i need someone to accompany me.
*Hope 2day will be a better day*
1:17 PM
Thursday, January 27, 2005
I wanna change blogskin... but i still can't one that i reallie like... one that is suitable for me to post my photos. It has been a while since i last post pictures. Rather lazy to do. Got a number of reports recently... urgh... dun like reports.
Damn it... my freaking com is not working again... guess it's 'e processor prob again. Haiz... have to bring the com down to sim lim again. =( =( =( . Had to do my report yst nite... den i had to use my sis com... wah... i was amazed by my sis com after upgrading. The icons so different and so cool. The appearance of the special edition of window xp is so freaking nice. Hahaaa. Use her com till 2am in the morning to do that sickening report.
So pissed off by someone in the morning... so damn selfish & inconsiderate. Argh forget it... it alwayz liddat.
Yeah... achieved something this morning... dearie Jiarui accompanied me in 'e play.
Fran: "Hey rui, is you boyfriend rich and handsome?"
Rui: "No! Den how about you?"
Fran: "No... some people just like to spout nonsense that we like to know rich and handsome guys."
Rui: "Yah lar. If have, count how many rich and handsome guys around us."
The stupid brainless idiotic act chio bitch doesn't think before she spreads nonsense. Now she like to act like a total bitch... put on makeup (long eyebrows) which she have neva, change her dress sense (no more cartoon characters), get a bf (er-xin). Oh please... for heaven sake, dun think u're a princess... u are SICK in the mind.
Okie... i shall go look for nice blogskins... hopefully i can find one.
Dearie... i can't wait to see u tonite... love ya. MucksSss!
11:47 AM
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Happi burfdae to me! Happi burfdae to me!
Happi burfdae to me~
Happy burfdae to me...
It was my burfdae yesterday. I'm 19 oredi! Haha... I took MC... cuz i woke up so late for school. Moreover, dearie wanted to accompany me. Stayed overnight at dearie's place the day before yst. When the clock hits 11.59, I received my first birthday msg from Royston, followed by Joel's call at 12 sharp, wishing me Happy Birthday. Of course, my cutie sweet honey baby was beside me at that time... thanks dearie. Love ya loads!!! My dearie stayed up till so late... wanted to wake me up the next morning so that i wun be late for school... poor thing... sori dear. Thanks dearies for all the sweet messages. Love u all so much. Wanted to watch "Shall We Dance" yesterday... but couldn't make it in time for the 5.30pm show... cuz had to see the doc and go home earlier... cuz mummy bought for me birthday cake.
Hahaa... i lied to the doc that i had a hangover... den doc asked me wat did i drink... opps... i wasn't prepared... anyway... juz name a few... hee. Den he say... u dun drink achohol one is it? Den i said... "Yah... i dun drink." Hahahaaa... i made a big lie. After getting the MC... dearie went home with me... got the nice mango cake choosen by my sista. Mummy, Daddy and granny gave me hongbao. My sista gave me a necklace n a pair of earrings.
Dearie took the train with me to school today. Was hoping that he could eat breakfast with me... but it's okie. Yoke Huey bought curry puffs for everyone... so nice of her... thank u. Got report to submit tmr again... 'e old man is mad... alwayz want us to submit a long report within a few days... argh... i haven start doing... gotta start after lunch.
Thanks dearies...(MoonJiaruiJaneShiHuiYokeHueyEileenEstherKennethRoystonSusanWeiliang)
for the lovely mao mao jacket... it's my favourite.
Thanks to rui, roy n ken for remembering that i like this jacket.
Love all of u!!!
1:17 PM
Sunday, January 23, 2005
21st January (Friday)
It Hari Raya... HOLIDAY! Yeah... escape from ARDC. Had to wake up early and left dearie's house to meet my dear ying ying, aunt n mum at Orchard. Haven gone shopping for a long long time... cuz i'm so broke. I tott it will be a good shopping day... but it turns out the other way. Boring day... so crowded at Orchard... I can't even find anything i like. Shop the entire day... but didn't get much stuff. Only bought a green halter from Zara n bought my liquid foundation. Think i prefer to shop alone... so i can find more stuff. After shopping... went to my aunt's hse for dinner... and went home soon after.
22nd January (Saturday)
Shopping day again! Meet my favourite aunt at Bugis... hahaa... I was late as usual. Went to tinun for lunch... ate fried beef udon. My aunt wanted to buy a 256 memory stick for her cam.... so we went to the Sony Gallery... omg... it was freaking expensive as compared to the one i bought i Japan... exactly the same... i bought less than S$120 (7680 yen)... it cosy $170 here. She regretted it so badly... cuz i actually ask her to buy at Japan also. We went to look for a small pouch to keep our cam. Hahaa... she bought 2 small bag from littlematchgirl... 1 for my digi cam n the other for hers. So happy. Went to V8 to see the memory stick hoping that it will be cheaper... nah... it's the same. No choice she had to get it. Shop around Bugis... hahaa... met Don at POA... he's working there... omg... i actually called him. Nothing much at Bugis... so we made our way to Orchard.
I was going to meet dearie tonite... wanted to watch "Shall We Dance"... but we're broke... check my account n it was running low... my aunt was so nice... she gave me $50 so i can watch movie with dearie. So sad... "Shall We Dance" tickets were sold out. So dearie booked Elektra at 6.55pm at PS. My aunt bought me my birthday pressie... my Shiseido Luminizing Powery Foundation $76 and Eye Liner $46. Omg... I was so happy cuz i am so broke to replenish my cosmetics... but felt damn guilty. She's the best aunt in the world. Bought a pants and belt from m)phosis $72 plus. Opps... think my mum gonna kill me. After that, I walked to PS to meet my dearest. After the movie... wanted to eat dinner... but dunno where. Far East got cheaper food... but it was so far. Den we walked towards Orchard... we were reaching Far East Plaza unknowingly... cuz we said it was so far initially n didn't want to go there... wanted to eat at Esteler 77... but it was closed... so dearie say let's get out of town... i was so hungry by that time. So we went to the food court below scotts. Dearie stayed over at my place.
23rd January (Today)
Dearie woke up at 12 plus. We went to Yew Tee for lunch... dearie had to leave after that cuz he had floorball game and ref today. I came home... tried to do my sickening project... so reluctantly... haiz... nothing much achieve. Fell asleep... but so many ppl keep calling n msging... i was so so aggitated... I want to sleep! Dearie... *Missing ya*. Can't wait for u to reach home soon... so i can hear ur voice.
9:05 PM
Sunday, January 16, 2005
hey hey... omg... i haven been blogging... keep posting photos and photos and photos. I shall start recalling all the way back from 7th January... can't really remember much. But i'll try my best...
7th January (Friday)
On that day... huihui was a bit mad mad... she wanted to eat carrot cake so badly... so Jane and I accompanied her all the way to YCK hawker centre to eat carrot cake. I wanted to drink the lemon lime there... but both of them didn't allow me to... cuz later scared i pain pain. At the end I drank Sugar Cane. After that, we walked back to school by the gate near the sports hall n walked up the "Chang Cheng" long flight of steps. That day got test. Hehee... I managed to score 30/40, but wasn't quite satisfied cuz the questions i get is those dat didn't appear in the notes. After the test, we went to causeway point to celebrate Kenneth's belated birthday. His actual birthday was on 6th January. Happy 19th birthday! Yeah.. we went Pizza Hut... den i insisted in squeezing the 6 of us to a small table. Hahaa... cosy cosy mah. So my dearies all give in to me. We ate curry chicken pizza and hawaiian pizza... wanted the cheese crust for the curry chicken one... but i think the waiter made a mistake with our order... at the end it was the sausage one. EeeEeeee.
After the dinner... they accompanied me to Bits and Pieces to pierce another ear hole. I only decided last minute... cuz i was feeling very terrible that day... wanted to use the physical pain to relieve the psychological pain. I quarreled with dearie in the morning... the gunbound + doorbell incident. If that damn doorbell didn't ring at that sickening moment... nothing would have happen. Anyway, I felt really really upset that entire day... nothing could make me brush that aside that day... standing somewhere quiet all by myself... tearing badly. Argh, it's over... dun wanna think abt it anymore.
After piercing my ear, we went to the stuff the beads into the soft toy shop den went to the arcade... played the answer questions game. Hahaa... Jiarui won. Den we played basketball. Jane and I won this time... Yeah! I played the super kiddy shoot water thingy.
We spent 2 hrs at the staircase outside the arcade... taking 50 over photos. Phtos Photos n Photos! I didn't feel like going home that day... so they all accompanied me till nearly 10. Took alot of stupid looking photos... but reallie had fun taking those stupid faces and actions.
8th January (Saturday)
Dear dear had to ref 2 games that day... and it only ended at 6pm. Feeling so so lonely+lonely+lonely n bored that day. I could only meet dear dear at Yew Tee after his ref. Felt so miserable... haven see my dear for a few days. I stayed over at dearie's place that nite.
9th January (Sunday)
Baby had game at 12pm that day. I couldn't get up in time. So I stayed at dearie's place and waited till he came home. I cooked the rice before dear dear reach home. Dear dear fried beef with onions for lunch. Yummy yummy.
12th January (Wednesday)
Yeah. It's our 4th month anniversary. OppS... it didn't came across my mind that day... cuz so many things happen the few days b4. Anyway... yeah dearie... we've been together for 4 months oredi! I love u sooo much! Dear dear cooked Cabonara Pasta for me that day. Yummy yummy. Love dear dear's cooking. Thanks dear. After dinner, dear brought me to the garden behind to play sparklers... only played 2. Had to go home after that... cuz had to do the Konnyaku jellies for the tsunami fund raising gala event. Haha.. so i made the jellies midnight.
13th January (Thursday)
Tsunami fund raising day. I had to carry the 3 heavy boxes of jellies to school. My heand was going to break. Had to set up the stall to sell the Konnyaku jellies. The jellies were all sold by 1pm. Omg... someone actually bid Fandi Ahmad's jersey for $415. Went home early to do my report and website. I tott i was not going to meet dear dear that day. But I was very happy cause dear dear say he may be meeting me after i complete my website. So dear dear arranged to meet me at 7.45pm at Yishun to watch Aviator. Hahaa... I was late again. Anyway, we ahad dinner at long john silver before the movie which starts at 8.55pm. The movie ended rather late... nearly 12am. We were gonna catch the last few trains back. Dearie stayed over at my place that nite. When we reached home... I wanted to make my website look better... but opps... i made dearie angry cuz i told him earlier on that i have completed it. Sorry.
14th January (Friday)
I woke up early in the morning to complete my tep summary report... the flowchart and the last question while dearie was still sleeping. We left the house abt 1pm... went to Yew Tee to have our lunch... headed to school after that. I was so upset that day with my freaking spoiled tep summary report word document in my diskette. I couldn't open the file... appear the sickening msg "... serious error while opening the document..."... i knew it means the end when that freaking msg appear... cuz it happened before. I cried in fsrc... my lovely frens in fsrc consoled me. After school.. took bus 86 with liyan to sengkang.. gonna meet dearie at Punggol Plaza. So happy to see dearie. We went to ntuc to buy the ingredients... yeah... dear dear gonna cook again for me... dear dear cooked Bak Ku Teh. Yummie... tasty... heavenly... good. I love you dear! Thanks. Later, dear dear brought me to play sparklers again! Took a couple of photos. Stayed over at dearie's place that nite. Dearie made my day better! =)
15th January (Saturday)
Dear dear got to referee at NTU today. We left the house at 12 plus, but my silly dearie forgot to bring his handphone... so he went back to get it. When we reach the bus stop... he realised he for got to bring his whistle... Hahaa... see dear... u are 'e last one. We took the train, dear alighted at Boon Lay while I went back to CCK. Yeah... i found another copy of my report in my com... so happy. After dear's referee session end... we went to westmall & had our dinner at Burger King... hee... asked dear dear a few questions...
1. what was the first fast food restaurant we first ate together?
2. what did he wore when he first saw me?
3. what was i wearing the first time he saw me at zouk?
4. what was 'e first chinese food we ate together?
5. what was 'e first movie we watch together....
blah blah~~
After that, we went to causeway point cuz dear dear wanted to eat MOS burger there. So we went there. We went home after that.
16th January (Sunday)
I stayed at home 'e entire day. Edit a few photos that day. Didn't get to meet dearie... cuz he had game at tampines that evening.
17th January (Monday)
First day at ARDC today. I was late today... reached abt 9am. I was so pissed with the weather. Wore my white colour pants.. it was raining... damn it... my pants had so many black spots on it after walking out. I was so so irritated by it... at the end i called home to get my maid to bring out my levis jeans to the bus stop. Urgh... i missed my bus... n worse... she brought the wrong levis jeans... wanted 'e darker colour. But no choice oredi. Took the bus to CCK and change into my jeans. When i reached school... i didn't dare to go into the room... cuz the sup was inside. Was so dumb... should have went in... wasted another unnecessary 15 mins. Haiz... not as good as wat we expect it to be. I miss FSRC so much. Very much retricted over here at ARDC as compared to FSRC. Anyway, rui, royston and I made our way to causeway point after sch and meet my baby there. We ate dinner at MOS burger and went to watch "Omen" after school. The show not scary at all one... quite difficult to understand... but dear dear tried to explain to me. We went to the Pasa Malam for a while. Went home after that.
18th January (Tuesday)
Met up with dear after school at Punggol Plaza... didn't noe wat to eat for dinner. Went to NTUC... but didn't get anything there cuz dearie say the stuff he wants dun have. So we made our way to Compasspoint... had our dinner at MOS burger again. Ate the spicy chilly hotdog set. OoooOO... hot hot. We went to the super market... bought alot of things as usual... enjoy shopping trips with dearie to the supermarket. Deardear bought me the cute cute soda bottle drink... hee. Dearie bought powder almond jelly packet... soba and udon... den say he wanna make sparkling jelly for me... so get the rasberry jelly powder... sour cream... alot more. We went home after that. Stayed over at dearie place that nite. Deardear made almond jelly... yea!
19th January (Wednesday)
Went to school with janejane in the morning. Haiz the sickening raymond wong nag nag everyday abt puntuality n keep asking us to read the newspaper abt US. Think his whole head will turn white before he turns 45. Yeah.. anyway... managed to get out of that boring place at 9 plus to help out NYP Openhouse. Quite little people during our shift... so only guided a group with Hwa Qi. Played heart attack and donkey in the seminar room while waiting for people to come. Sob... jiarui hit me so hard in the forfeit... pain pain. But nvm... u shall be forgiven.
After lunch... omg... guess who i met! JOEL CHONG! Juz outside the shopping arcade when i was gonna disturb my dear joreen... i was soooo surprise... haven seen him for ages. Omg... again we found out that the world is so small after toking...
It started from him saying that he wanna get into Sports and Wellness.
So i told him my dearie was from there.
Den he said he wanted to play floorball... hahaa... again...
i told him my dearie plays floorball and also in national team.
Den he was like really ah... den i said yah...
so he say he noes a few of the players...
and ask me to ask dearie if he noes 'timothy quek'.
Ahhhah... my mind scanned through the name...
and the surname "QUEK"...
isn't that dearie's ex's brother???
So i told him.
Den i said he got alot of siblings...
and he completed my sentence...
'Jill Quek' and 'Matha Quek'.
So Jill is his coach in ITE Mac.
Imagine... my ex noes my dearie's ex's bro n sis...
Den he ask wat's dearie's name...
replied 'Daryl'
So he is the one! Came across his name.
Den I showed him my dearie's pic.
Hmmm... he looks familiar...
den he ask does he plays for NYP floorball...
den i said yah...
no wonder!
Saw him in the match btw NYP and ITE Mac...
Yeah... dearie played in that match...
Hahaa...
Such a coincidence!
Anyway... he's still the same... still as fun-loving as ever.
Went back to the room after lunch... played "7 up"... the forfeit was to drink that terribly awful yucky sick Luo Han tea. Omg... it's super yucky. Urgh... i had to drink a few times. Hee... thanks to the hero "andrew"... helped me drank once. Haha... poor him... got hit "there" by the bottle. So funnie. Anyway... all of us had fun. I told dearie that i saw my ex... den he said 'ANGRY!'... but i noe he's not... juz simply jealous hoh? I love my dear dear to be jealous... so it means tat he loves me! Hahahaa. Thick-skinned rite? Dun worry my dear... u'r the only one in my heart now. After school... went to dearie hse... dear dear made "Chile" for dinner... yummie yummie yum yum... delicious... thanks my dear.
20th January (Thursday)
WoOooHh... i finally type till this day. Have been saving this entry as draft since January 16. Sob... i forgot to bring my ai xin lunch to school. Soooooooo Sad... really wanted to eat that for lunch. Sorry dearie. Helped out at NYP openhouse today again. More ppl today... guided 2 groups. So tired. Yeah... drew on the ginger bread for dear dear... nice nice. Huihui's balloon was taken away... sad sad... i sayang u kiez. Later, brought hui hui n moon... wanted to make the ginger bread again... but no more oredi. So we ended up sewing a heart... our dear huihui so cute... dunno how to turn over... dunno how to insert the cotton into the heart... n dunno how to sew the rite way. Hahaa... her heart is out of shape... dun worry next time i teach u kiez... den u can mend clothes for ur Terrence. Bought egg tarts and water chestnut drink for deardear. Left the school early with huihui. Haiz... shouldn't have... had to make a long way to dearie's place cuz of the fire at Jalan Kayu. Took bus 86... den the road was block... the bus had to go straight instead of turning left... so alighted at the next stop. The place only got 70, 103 and 854... can't even take any of them. Another ger and i happen to face the same problem... when we saw the road was clear... we walked back to a 86 bus stop and took another 86. Damn it... reaching another traffic light... a bus conductor came up the bus to inform that we can't pass Jalan Kayu... wat the hell. Waste so much money. Ended up at the sengkang interchange... and took 83 from there. Yeah... finally after a long long journey... I see my baby. We made an achievement today! Hahaa... finally clean the house... we vacuum and mop the floor, wash the fan today. Now the house feels much cleaner. Dearie cooked udon for me for dinner. Fell asleep while watching American Idol... hahaa. Woke up went to take my shower n went out with dearie at 1am plus. Went to punggol plaza... we ate ice cream... I ate solero ice cream... dear dear ate walls ice cream. So sad... nothing is comparable to dearie's ice cream. Reached home... dearie make egg mayo. It's 4am plus oredi... gonna go to bed soon... nitez.
9:42 PM
Sweetie Baby Cutie Yummy... I want you forever n ever n ever. MuckSssS! Taken on 14th January 2005.
9:38 PM
Baby brought me to the garden to play sparklers... had fun with dear dear. Taken on 14th January 2005.
5:35 PM
Dearies... friends 4eva!
11:17 AM
Royston...Kenneth...Jane...Fransca...Shihui... we are powerful!!!
3:10 AM
Monday, January 10, 2005
Taken with my lovely dearies... on 7th January at Causeway Point... we were celebrating Kenneth's 19th birthday on that day. This one not very nice... cuz not much inspiration... hmpf.
12:49 AM
Sunday, January 09, 2005
He's my companion, my lover, my baby, my dearie, my hero, my dearest, my superman, my dear dear, my baobei, my prince charming, my darling, my cutest & most handsome boy boy, my carebear's favourite ... n it goes on... and on... and on. He's everything to me. Loving you always. -Huggies-
7:35 PM
Dearie... I will alwayz love you. 'e pictures were taken on the 5th of January. This is the white version. Dunnoe which one is nicer... so did 2 different colour combination.
7:27 PM
Thursday, January 06, 2005
It's another tiring day... i'm back home after a long day in school. Missin my dearie badly. Couldn't get to see him after sch... but i noe dearie is very tired. Have been playing Crazy Taxi in sch 'e entire day. I managed to complete the round... but so dumb... din enter my name... so had to replay... so freaking difficult to get to the destination. So many things left undone... reports... personal selling... personal webpage... study for tmr's test. I have no mood to start on all. I hate tis sickening feeling. I wish everything is not as bad as wat i think. Perhaps i'm overly sensitive... but still... 'e messages discombobulate me. I juz wanna erase everything from my mind.. I dun wanna think at all. I'm mentally tired... exhausted... drained out. The prob muz have lie with me... probably i'm not good enuff. Damn it... I dun wanna noe.
My dearie rui have been so stressed up recently... facing so many obstacles. I pray that she will get through this soon. I noe she's feeling really awful... really sad to see her in this state. Juz to let u noe dear rui... i'll alwayz be there for you. Dun think so much kiez.... maybe we'll all juz feel better by not knowing anything. Curse all the f**king relationship problems.
7:39 PM
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Tanning on a rainy day in school...
2:16 AM
I'm soo tired... physically... mentally... in a loss.
I'm not okie at all... i can't help it but to feel this way.
*tearing so badly*...
desperate for help...
but no one understands... even myself.
I do trust u...
but i'm losing faith in myself...
doubting my own ability to keep ur heart.
Feeling so weak...
can't bear to lose u...
'e thought of it...
simply frightens me...
how can i live without u...
i dun wanna think anymore...
juz noe that...
i'll always love u...
1:51 AM
Sunday, January 02, 2005
It's a brand new year! Happy New Year to u my frens! May all ur wishes come true. May all girls become prettier n sexier while guys become more macho n handsome.
Last friday was New Year Eve. Sch ended at 1pm. But surprising, I went to school. Luckily, I did. Mr Mervyn Chew went up to the room and checked the attendence. Quite a number of stopover mates didn't go to school since it was only a half day... they had to take MC. Never did we expect him to check cuz he have never ever check the attendence. I think from now on... have to go sch earlier... dun wanna get caught for the last 2 weeks.
After school last friday... went to dearie's place. We booked tickets for Kung Fu Hustle at PS at 6.40pm. We went to Punggol Plaza to have our lunch and did some shopping in the supermarket. I enjoy shopping at the supermarket with dear dear. Dear dear bought raw popcorn seeds to make popcorn for me... cuz i told him Jane say can make homemade popcorn... den he said he did it in home economics. After that.. we headed back home.
We were almost late for our movie. Fortunately, the show started rather late. During the show... Gabriel called dearie to say that he and the rest of the SW frens should be going over to dearie's place for mini countdown. After the movie, dearie n i went to Carrefour to get drinks and some food for dinner n the celebration.
When we reached home... dearie made Cheesy Macoroni for dinner.. yummy. Thanks dearie. I love to eat dear dear's home cooked food. Soon after, Gabriel arrived with his girlfriend, followed by the others... let me see if i can still remember the names... Ginny & her bf, Lawrence, Nigel, Al & Sherwin. Dearie taught us a new game... but I still dunno how to play. In the midst of the game... a while after 12am... someone called dearie. It is undeniable that I was very much affected and upset... but I dun blame dearie. It was juz on my side that i was a bit sensitive... partly becuz of wat happened the day before. I attempted to drown the saddness by gulping the rest of the Heiniken n the miller... but i didn't want to look awful... so I was still dead sobber. But i noe dearie was by my side... he brought carebear out for me to hug... I felt better after a while. We played bluff... but i couldn't clear my cards. Dearie was in the kitchen busy making pizza and popcorn for us. After the game, they watched "Once Upon a time in Mexico"... but I wasn't interested cuz it was all shooting scenes. Dearie's friends were drunk... vomiting continuously everywhere... talking loads of rubbish. Poor dearie had to clean up the mess... his fren vomited onto his hand... yucks. I went to bed with carebear first. Dearie joined me after the show... smelling with strong alcohol. Everyone knocked out that nite.
We woke up late afternoon... played text twist with dearie... den headed to Causeway point for dinner. I went home after that.
Today, didn't get to meet dearie... but it's okie... let me miss him more... so i'll be even happier the next time i meet him. I stayed home the entire day... it's has been so long since I last stayed at home alone for the whole day. I edited a few photos today... nearly forgotten about "My fairytale world" which I started doing on Christmas Eve. I was looking madly for a font that i like, find till i was falling asleep in front of the com. My parents, bro n sis went to my aunt's house for dinner. Espen bought his gf home. Mummy say his gf pretty... hmmm.. wonder how she look like in person... only saw her on his friendster photo. Ying Ying jie jie is back from aussie... gonna meet up with her soon!
Haiz... my maid spoilt my halter top when ironing it. Sad sad... cuz i only wore it twice. But can't do anything about it... juz haveto accept. Played gunbound with dearie after dinner. I was so lousy in it... keep shooting wrongly... got scolded from dear dear. It's okie... dear dear juz want me to improve.
Lotsa things to do... need to submit the Festive report and the "Leading Fulfilling Lives" report... Investment game starting tomorrow. Tuesday need to bring Konnyaku jelly to school to raise fund for Tsunami crisis.
Gotta sleep soon... otherwise dearie will be upset. I miss you... Nitez...
11:29 PM
My fairytale world... with my Prince Charming
Dearie... u r truly my Prince Charming... u r all that I ever dream of.
I juz wanna spend the rest of my life with u... dun wanna ever lose you.
U mean 'e world to me... u mean everything to me...
having u in my life... is the best thing that have ever happen to me.
Nothing & no one else can ever replace your position in my heart... not even carebear.
I love u soooo much.
10:48 PM
28th December 2004
2:22 PM
Hey Jane...sorry for the late photo post.
Yeah... finally have ur face in my blog!
Once again... Happy 20th Birthday!
The photos were taken on Jane's 20th birthday on 'e 28th December 04.
We were celebrating her birthdae at Fish & Co at Glasshouse.
Moon Jiarui Royston Kenneth Daryl and I were there.
Shihui didn't join us cuz.... (well, we all noe). Nvm... u are forgiven.
We ordered 3 sets of seafood platter for 2 persons and 1 set of seafood platter for 1 person.
Nice ambience... with song dedication for Jane.
At the end... there was a small cake for Jane... it was so delicious... all of us had 2 mouths of it. Silly rui wanted all of us to take a pic with the cake with THUMBS UP.
Everyone did it... really funnie...
especially my dearie... look at the bottom right of the pic above.
All of us had a memorable nite!
2:10 PM
