You betray my trust... Y muz u lie to me... I knew it from the very day u blocked me. I should have trusted my gut from the start! I will never believe you ever n ever again! I hate you! I don't regret knowing you but i'll always regret trusting you. You said that u will not lie to me... in ur eyes... i'm a fool. Hamburger face... Baobei doggie all noes the truth! You dun have to wonder who am i referring to... coz u are the one!

My dear agnes is attached today! Hope she'll be happy with him. All the best to them.

Dearie... i miss you... sorry about last nite. I didn't mean to mention it... i couldn't bear to lose you at all. I want you to stay by my side. I want to make you happy. You are my baby. I love you.

Once again hurtful words came outta of our mouths...
Why did god made BOYs and GIRLs differently?
I merely expressed what i was thinking...
I meant no harm...
I held no deep hatred.
To type it out...
to let my vent my anger...
instead it led to a misunderstanding...
how foolish i was.


I can neva make u happy i guess.

The saddest thing is...

3 hrs ago... i typed out a paragraph
about me. *On the left hand corner, on the pic*
1. express my feelings perceptibly
2. wishing that he'll always be happy
Wrong to express my feelings.
Wrong about wishing...
since i can't even make you happy for at least a day.


I AM A BIG FOOL... A BIG ASSHOLE.

Steer clear of emotions,

disguise your every beat.

Escapes of tender care

by pushing away the concrete.

Conceal your heart

as a barrier to your justice.

Misguide yourself by forcing

away your every touch of closeness.

To the broken past,

pieces left dissipated.

A standing out of yourself

never wanted to end up jaded.

A tender heart within

concealed by shadows of divine.

If you would only let yourself

the world would see your shine.

Two broken hearts as one

from the troubled past we grew.

Love between the sacred souls

Telling you how much I Love You.

***

If only i could turn back time for you...

I would...

To lessen the pain we had.

To make you happy...

But i couldn't...

'WORDS of PROMISE'

was all i could provide you with

but it was useless...

"TRUST" and "CARE"...

Are they the same?

I'm so lost...

O Lord...

teach me TRUST

show me the meaning of CARE

***

Baby... thanks for wat've you have done for me.

I understand that it's not easy.

Maybe it seemed as if i wanted it to turn out that way...

but it's reallie not.

I've neva expect you to delete the acct for me.

I noe i can't turn back the time.

But i'm trying to change...

to grow up for you...

I am willing to do anything for you

to make you happier...

I will.

Never wanting to give up on this...

to hold on to you forever...

because I reallie do Love You...

-Tears rolled down her cheeks... it hurtz-

LOVE

New blogskin finally! Hahaa... but i think this skin is not gonna last for long... cuz it doesn't seem suitable for my photos Hopefully... i can find one nice and suitable.

Have been rather busy these few days... have to do applied project and creativity project. The irritating Mr Ho have been pestering us... we have so little time left to do.

1st - blister on my toe for walking to fast to be in time for tep

2nd - the damn drawer at the admin desk in IBRC was opened... i didn't notice it and got scatch quite badly till it bled

3rd - close my thumb in the damn stationary tray drawer when someone was asking for a staple

4th - almost sprain my ankle when walking to north canteen

5th - hit my chin when i was pushing the chair in

6th - almost slipped and fell when leaving IBRC

7th - almost slipped and fell the moment i met dearie at woodlands

8th - grabbed the catus with my bare hands for dearie to see... and the thorns stuck onto my finger... it hurts... and dearie helped me to pluck out the thorn (ouch!) , afterwhich he scolded and laughed at me for my stupidity =(

9th - almost slipped and fell again when going to the computer shop

Oh yah... on my way to school... they was an accident at the road in front of Yew Tee station... someone on a bicycle was knocked down... saw the person lying on the road. Scared scared. Hope the person is fine.

I saw "A--" when i was in North Canteen for breakfast... i hate it when she looks at me... it juz reminds me of the terrible quarrel i had with dearie. But there's nothing i can do... like digging out her eyeballs? So she wun be able to stare at me... and ever look at my dearie. Damn... i hate the feeling of jealousy. Forget it...

But of course... i had hell lot of fun today.

Jiarui n Huihui came to school today to do creativity project with us... so i told Jiarui some of my ideas that i've tott on the way to school... using flash as advertisements (of coz i dunno how to do it... my dearie huihui n jane noes)... thanks to them... den i was thinking of video at first... but didn't noe what to video on... so we were discussing if the video should be serious or funnie... den hui rui n jane say they want hilarious one... so we were thinking so hard... den i tott of interviews... den jiarui elaborate further on the idea... and BINGO... our scripts were written out... with our professional actors... "Kenneth" as the interviewer and "Robin" as the male interviewee. So we started our acts... it was super funnie... hui hui n robin NG quite a number of times bcoz of huihui the mad laughing girl... jane's and moon's interview were the fastest... the interview with Robin and I was the ultimate one... with NGs at leats 10 times... Kenneth n i couldn't resist from laughing... lastly rui had NGs a few times becoz of the brightness. We had lotsa fun doing this!

My happiest moment of the day... when i was with dearie at Woodlands. I was so happy to be with dearie... had lotsa of fun. We went to Pastamania for dinner. I enjoyed toking n joking with dearie...

We went Mos Burger for 2nd round of dinner for dearie. i was telling dearie that he was eating the spicy chilly hotdog so fast... which led to wat huihui, moon n i was toking about today... the cake that moon made for ryan lasted a month... one mouth a day. Dearie said if it was him... he would have finish it within a few mouths. So i told him... ryan look at the cake... and must be thinking about moon's effort before he eats... but if i give dearie... the moment he gets it... he will pop into his mouth without looking at my efforts. Dearie mentioned about Gingerbread which i made... he said he took picture with it b4 eating... den suddely we remebered... that was becoz it was the 2nd gingerbread... i gave him two The moment i gave him the gingerbreads... he opened one and ate... when i turned my head and look at him... he was going to eat the 2nd one... that was when i stop him to take pic. So both of us laughed.

Dearie sent me to Yew Tee Station... on the way there... we were quibbling jokingly about Tiger Airways. Dear dear thanks for the day... i really enjoyed myself... hope we will have more of this day!

When i reach yew tee... so coincidence... my sista was waiting for my dad to pick her up... so i didn't need to take the bus and walk in. I saw a new mitsubishi phone today... with LED... the design was so cool... but it has lesser fuctions from the other model. Stupid com got that no video input prob again. I tried to re-insert my graphic card again and again... for an hour plus... i almost gave up... and it worked at the end!

Gonna sleep soon... nites... my throat hurts now!!!

Juz completed a carebear survey... and see which carebear's character do i resemble... and there was a tie between two carebears...

Pretty much happened today... some ups some downs....

Went to the dental the first thing today. I was 10 minutes late n was the last person for the day. Tighten my braces as usual... and it hurts a little... but still bearable.

Met my belle sista at Raffles Pl... she said she was going to bring me to her fren's place to chill out. So we went to boat quey... but it was in the late noon... at the end we just sit in this small coffee stall... ate our lunch and chit chat a little. After that, she brought me up to her company. When i went into the office... den i saw lots of round tables with many chairs... the first thing that came to my mind was "Omg... dun tell me she gonna make me go through the network marketing which is somewhat similar to the pyramid thing... please dun." Then she began to intro me to all her colleagues... and told them that i was her real lil' sis... hahaa... some actually believed. I was rather shy... so everyone was asking y i seem so shy... hahaa... den she laugh n say... hahaa... they dunno me onli... if not i will make so much noise until u cannot take it. She introduced me to 1 of her colleague... which was one of the managers... den he said later someone will explain to you what your sis is doing here. Oh damn... i knew it. But i went through it... firstly, becoz she's my closest jie jie... secondly, becoz she say that it's gonna be 30 minutes onli. So i juz sat through it... listening to it.... but in my mind i am 100% sure that i will never join... so i juz listen with a open heart. Initially... i was rather pissed... becoz she neva tell me anything about it b4 bringing me up to her company. After the briefing... we went back to the coffee stall to tok. She asked me how i find it... den i told her actually i know about such companies... but i'm not really interested... and cuz i noe my dearie wun like it. So she didn't force me or persuade me any further... i guess afterall she noes me well... that once i make up my mind there's no way to tempt me or persuade me in any ways... juz like smoking... she has been smoking so often heavily in front of me... but she knows that i will never be tempted to start smoking again. Thanks sista! Hahahaa... Cigarette prices went up today again... $11.00 for a pac... when she wanted to buy... i told her the price went up... she was making so much noise about it... and refused to buy at first... she juz turned back to one of her fling n ask for one. But at the end she still couldn't resist it and so resorted to Texas... which was like the cheapest. We took a couple of photos today... and catch up quite a lot and she introduced me to a few of her male friends... she was rather protective of me and didn't allow the guys who wanted noe me to get my number... and of course she noes i'm madly in love with my baby. My dearie is the best in my eyes.... no one else can ever replace him in my heart. My dear sista is still having so many flings... but i noe there's one person on her mind now... her ex Edy... she just realised that all this while... he has been caring for her quietly... but he's got a gf now... but i juz pray that she will find her mr right soon...

After that... i took a a train from clarke quey to dhoby ghaut... wanted to take bus 190 from there. I waited for the bus for 1hr 30 mins... den i remember today had Chingay... so most probably the bus is not on service today. Stupid... there was no notice at the bus stop... many ppl were waiting for the sickening bus. At the end... i took 174 to Bukit Timah... n change to 170... and my dad picked me up at the heavy vehicle carpark behind my estate.

Dear dear... i wanna tell you that i'm really sorry. I didn't mean to say those words that hurt u... my intention was not that... i could neva bear to leave you. You are the one i am with... you are the one i wanna be with. I dun blame you for not being able to go gym with me... cuz i noe it's not ur fault. So please dun take those words to heart. I promised you i will never say such a thing anymore. Please dun be mad at me... if not i'll neva forgive myself. Baby... I love you...

Omg omg... i'm like so excited n happy now. I'm gonna blog the second time. Hahaa... my com is not spoilt!!! My dearie... brought back home n clean everything for me... n re-insert the graphic card. He tried it using his own monitor... and it worked! At first i was so afraid that the fault lies with my monitor. So we didn't bring it to sim lim. I juz took a cab home from dearie's place with the my cpu. And i juz fixed back everything. At first... it couldn't work... cuz i connect to the wrong graphic card... i almost gave up... den i tried another connection. OMG! I was so happy when the "No Video Input" didn't appear when i start the com! Omg! Omg! Omg! HahahahahahaaaaaHahahahaaaaHahahahahaHaaaaHAhaaa.... I am sooooooo HAPPY! I can edit my photos using my own com again!!! YAY YAY YAY!!!!

I'm going crazy now!! Whahahahahaa! WoooooHHhoooO!

I'm sooooo happy for dear dear too!!! Dear dear's X-BOX is repaired!!! The repair cost was below $50! The hard-disk was reformat... n it was fixed! Hahahaaa. Dear dear can play on the x-box oredi! Sponge Bob Square Pants!!!

We went to Tampines to collect the X-box in the noon. After that... we had our lunch & dinner at Sakae Sushi. Stupid auntie didn't see where she walk... she was swinging her hands like no one business... n hit my precious part below... summore act like nothing happen... n juz walk away. Dearie got so pissed n scolded her coz she didn't even bother to apologise... and worse of all... she didn't hear. I was so scared... cuz dearie wanted to confront her the second time. I stopped dear dear... luckily i manage to persuade him.

It's a happy day!

Went back today to school for MMD lesson... it was like so dumb... we had to go back to sch juz for this... and it was teaching the same stupid thing as last week... anyone will noe how to do it without going to the lesson... such a waste of time. Sorry dearies... for being so late again for the creativity project. Supposed to brainstorm about how to increase earlier marriages n birth rates.

After the lesson... moon n i took the train to orchard... she was going to meet her darling ryan... n i was gonna meet baby. We went to crumpler to check out about the stripe... n to see if there was any nice bigger bag. Yay... the stripe can be fix. We went to Borders... n i heard the "Rich Girl" song... it couldn't get out of my mind... keep disturbing dearie with the song.

Dearie n i watched "Hide & Seek" at Lido at 5.30pm today... while moonie n ryan watched at 4.50pm at PS. I feel that the show is much niceeeer than "Constantine".

During the show... there was this bunch of monkeys right behind us... they can't behave properly... made so many noise... keep laughing loudly... when it's not even funnie. It was so freaking irritating. I was so irritated... so dear dear turn back and scolded them... "Can you please lower down!"... I was a little frightened... cuz dearie was so fierce. But they kept quiet after that. Den again... they took revenge by kicking our seats... but i didn't dare to tell dearie... cuz i noe he will flare up. The worse thing is... they are girls... don't they noe wat is manners when watching movie.

We walked to PS after the movie. I'm at dearie's place now...

I'm back home so early today... i'm so bored now... having a headache... the freaking weather is killing me. Dear dear said that the grass are all dying... hee... but it's true. Went back to school today for the customer service test.

Yesterday dearie n i went to Century Square n Tampines Mall to send his X-Box for repair. Hopefully the x-box can be repaired... if not baby will be so upset. We walked around for a while... wanted to go to Swensens for dinner... but it doesn't have a branch there. So we took 969 to Causeway point... the journey was so long. We had our dinner at Swensens... i had breaded chicken set while dear dear chose the cheesy beef burger... we also ordered Calamari... didn't dare to order onion rings again due to the awful pizza hut onion rings. Yay... we had ice cream... i ate the coit tower... but didn't finish it cuz i was so full.

We bought "Lost in Translation" vcd back to watch. Dearie stayed over at my place. I was so surprise that i could concentrate on studying for the CS test... hahaa... tt's because my com is spoilt. After that we watched the vcd... the actor was so emotionless... the movie hardly have music... rather monotonous... lucky dearie was with me.

Dear dear sent me to school today... n brought my cpu home... thanks baby. I reallie appreciate it... thanks for being so thoughtful... afraid that the stuff will be too heavy for me.

Yay... gonna edit some photos... hope i'll have some inspiration...

It was v'dae yesterdey...

baby, dearies n friends...

hope it's not to late to say...

Dearie brought me to East Coast yesterday. On the way there... we alighted the bus at Katong to have Katong Laksa as lunch. Dearie bought Char Siew Pau from 'Pau-Dian'. When we were having the laksa... the lion dance troup came into the shop... I was a little scared... cuz it was so loud. When we were going to pay for the meal... the lady was so shocked with the amount of coins we have... and asked us to change with her... dearie had over 30 dollars worth of coins... paid $9 for the meal n changed $20... all in coins. Hahaa.

We made our way to East Coast after lunch. We rented the double bike and cycled for 2 hours. Dear dear... thank you for fulfilling another wish of mine... I had fun cycling with you. We went to Mac after returning the bike... yay... finally got to eat curly fries... and we ate strawberry sundae. We took bus 16 back to Dhoby Ghaut. We went to Carrefour... wanted to buy ingredients back to cook... but we didn't know what to cook for dinner. Later... we wanted to eat Pizza... but the queue at Pizza Hut n Pasta Mania was so long at PS. At the end, we made our way to Seng Kang Pizza Hut. We ordered the Rich Gold Crust with Super Supreme topping... ordered Onion Rings as Add-On. The rich gold crust had this sweet sweet part that doesn't blends well with the pizza.... so we always digged it out... hahaa. The first basket of onion rings brought to us was cold soft n soggy. So we asked for a change... the second basket was no where better... it was burnt n so we could only taste the burned taste. =( The Burger King onion rings taste much better. Dear dear and I was so fed-up with the onion rings... but we still laughed at it.

Dearie Huihui... dun worry Terrence won't be sad... just let him know you are happy to receive it... and it's the heart that counts. The white roses are very nice... though the bouquet is abit small. It's the stupid ppl's fault to deliver the wrong bouquet.

The day before v'dae... huihui and i went to Orchard to get presents. It was so fun. We went to "Shang Mian de Nan Ren"- Topman. After that we made our way to Far East. On the way there, i saw this gurl with a great slim figure... i was staring at her with great admiration... den i told huihui. Huihui scolded me siao when the girl n her boyfriend was approaching... i didn't notice the guy... suddenly the guy lifted his hands n waved at me... i was so shocked... den i look up n it was Don. Huihui n I broke into laughter like mad. Omg... i think he saw me staring at his gf... so embarassing. We went to "Pang Bian Zou" - Sidewalk. I was so sad... cuz the nice nice shirt with a japanese girl illustration was sold out, I wanted to get it for dearie. Argh! There was not much designs left. We left Far East n went to Pacific Plaza. I saw this top at Adidas... $79... it was quite nice. Den we went to Stussy n Rip Curl... but found nothing nice. We made our way to Taka... went to Guess... saw this shirt which was quite nice... $1o5... dut it doesn't look that price at all. Huihui like this long sleeve top there... which i think was very nice too... but Terrence don't like... n i can't buy cuz Dearie doesn't wear long sleeve. We went to Zara... but found nothing. Den we went to Armani Exchange... Terrence like a jacket from there... it cost $179... huihui was considering... but again it doesn't look $179. We were in a dilemma cuz we couldn't find anything that we found perfect at that time. We met up at 3.30 n it was 7pm oredi. We went to Wheelocks... cuz i remembered dear dear wanted a Crumpler bag... but it doesn't have the design dearie wanted anymore. The person adviced me to try 77 street. I went to the 77 street at Heerens... but there wasno crumpler bag. So we walked all the way back to Far East... both the 77 street branches doesn't have also. Later we found out that all the braches don't sell it anymore. We went back to Sidewalk twice again... at the end Huihui bought 2 tops for Ter. I still couldn't find anything. I began to panic. So we went back to Adidas... took a 2nd look at that tee-shirt... but it doesn't look as nice as the 1st look. Moreover there was no more size S and M available. Oh no! I was thinking so hard wat to buy, wanted to buy kitchen appliances for dearie... but i couldn't remember which was the one he wanted. So we went back to Crumpler... at the end, i bought a bright green crumpler bag for dearie... hoping that dearie will like it. But i now think the bag size not suitable=(. Huihui and I shopped for the presents like mad... after that we had to buy a box to pack the present... so we went back to Taka... and took more than 30 minutes to decide on the packaging... hahaa... we were mad about the "ribbon" thingy.

I got a B for my FSRC stopover... there only 3 people in the stopover had an A... Weiling, Paeyung n Shiyun... the goody ones. I went to get my results with Hwa Qi, Weiling, Shiyun n Andy. After that we wanted to go to North canteen... on the way there... I broke the strap on my saddals (1st sway). The first tott that came to my mind was "Oh no... going out later... how?" I called dear dear to check if i had leave any pair of shoes at his place... but dun have... which means that i either had to buy glue or buy a pair of new shoes. I called Jiarui to come out to the corridor to walk back with me. Hahaa... den she help me cry.

After we went back to the room... i flunk my shoes to the wall... i touched the chair behind me... right behind my knee... i lowered myself towards the chair... "MAGIC!"... 'e chair moved away... hoho... i fell on my ass onto the ground (2nd sway). The amazing magician... "KHEE JIARUI". She was soooo mesmerized by Zhao Quan n the majong... that she pulled the chair behind her away without looking... to sit nearer to him. Sob... she rather look at Zhao Quan than to take a look at me. Nvm... i forgive u dearie. Next time u better look at me more than look at Zhao Quan. The lesson is... "Dun ever play musical chair with Jiarui".

Robin was so nice... he offered to staple the strap back to the saddals for me... so it could at least last me till i get a new pair... Thanks Robin. I left the school at about 4pm with Moonie. She went to Bishan with me to get a new pair of shoes. I bought a pair of new shoes from Charles and Keith. She brought the spoilt one home for me. Thanks Moonie.

After that, i went to Toa Payoh to take 145 to meet dearie near Golden Mile. Had dinner with dearie n his family. I was very upset with myself yesterday... cuz i made several mistakes yst. Sorry dear. We went to the Thai Market... den almost everything was in thai. After that, we took a cab back... alighted at Punggol Plaza to get something n walked back to dearie's place.

Today dearie's family going back to Thailand. After that we gonna watch "Constantine" at PS... hope it's a nice show.

dearies... Happy Lunar New Year... it's the 2nd day of CNY. Hope everyone had fun n managed to receive lots of ang bao yesterday. Tmr have to go back to sch for tep... boring. I can't wait for saturday 'e 12th... dearie... it will be our 5th month anni... and monday 'e 14th... it will be our first v'dae together. Haven't get the pressie... but i think i noe wat i wanna get... have been aiming for it since dunno when... hope still have... maybe this weekend i shall go get it. Yay... it's my block leave next week... which means that i dun have to wake up so early. I'm at my cousin's place now... using his com. The adults are all playing majong outside. It's pretty boring over here... not much thing to do. Dearie dun wanna come... even more bored... sad sad =(. Yesterday went to 3 places... my grannies' hse from both my mum n dad's side... den went to dearie's place rather late. My mum's bro-in-law sent me there... so thankful for dat... cuz it's so far away from my granny hse. After dat dearie sent me to Woodlands... thanks baby.

Hey sorry dearie and friends... it's abit troublesome to view my blog now since i've set a password... anyway... it's my mobile phone number. This is because there is group of bitches who have been creating a hell lot of mess in my life. I dun wanna change my blog address as i noe u all would have to change the link on your blog again. And it's useless anyway... cause they will find the new address easily. And of course i won't delete my blog like them. Sorry for the inconvenience caused. Yea... my blog is only meant for me to keep an online diary as well as for my dearie and my dear frens out there to read.

And dearies... please dun be affected by what those bitches typed on the blog... u all are never sucky. You all are the greatest frens God have given me. It only goes to show how shallow the person who wrote that is, it's a shame that sr have such a fren. I'm sorry to cause such comments on u all.

Sigh... i seriously hope this will end... feeling really really exhausted n sick from all the nonsense they've created. I hope they can never find out my hp number. So i suppose... my hp number is very precious and confidential now. Next, they'll be hunting for my hp number. I probably have to change my password now and then.

Wanna wish you all a Happy Chinese New Year. Hope u have enjoyed ur family reunion dinner. Well... it has been a long time since i went to my granny's place. I saw my cousins... omg... they have changed so much. I remember the last time i saw my little cousins... they were still crawling... now they can walk and talk so well. Hahaa. I had fun with my little cousin... she's so cute... simply love to disturb her.

Tmr is the first day of CNY... gonna go to my granny's place. All of my relatives are gonna be there. Actually... i hope dearie can come along with me... but i think he has to visit his relatives too. =( Nvm... hope he will enjoy all his visits also.

Argh... i typed a long blog yst... but in the process... my internet connection got prob... so the entire entry is gone. I was too lazy to retype.

On Sunday... dearie had floorball game in the morning... i went to the salon to have my hair trimmed. After that, i made my way to Bugis... went to Bugis St, but couldn't find anything nice there. So i went to Bugis Junction... i saw this nice pink poka dots bra... but didn't buy cuz the matching bottom was sold out... i was so sad. Den i saw Don at POA again... he asked "What happened to your hair?"... so i replied "Cut la"... den i say "Y"... he lauff and said i look like ah lian now. So sad. I went to get the nude bra... it was not the colour and size i wanted... but i had no choice cuz the one i wanted was sold out. After that i continued to search for my purple top... i found this top from m)phosis... rather nice... but the price was $61... so ex... so i didn't get it. I went to Adidas... haha... i saw a bag... n was thinking how to match... so i found a top from there too... yea... so i bought both the bag n the top... $100 gone... heartache. I couldn't shop n spend anymore after that. I went to Tampines to wait for dearie... he was refereeing the game. I stood outside the courts for about 30 minutes... didn't dare to go in... cuz everyone was in sports attire while i as wearing a tube n in my nuah nuah levis... n there was so many in-neh-neh... so i was a bit scared. Later... i pluck up my courage n walked in... den the sickening in-neh neh winked at me... so i quickly walked toward the floorball area. I stood at a corner n look at dearie for more than 30 minutes but he didn't realise.. i could see that he was concentrating so hard. After the match... we went back to his place. Had dinner with his family. I stayed over at dearie's place that nite. His parents bought me a pink bag... sweet sweet... but very ex... so i feel a bit 'paiseh'. Thanks so much... dearie, his stepmom n his dad. I was late again as usual the next day. Thanks to my dearies who helped my sign in everyday. I couldn't wake up... i was so tired. The tv alarm... the phone alarm... my human alarm (my dearie)... all couldn't wake me up. Something happening happened in the train on the way back home.

watever u wanna tag... it doesn't bother me... cuz everyone noes who started all this shit. If u n ur frens did not insult me in ur blog in the first place... all this wouldn't have happen. I only got to noe who u all really are in december... i didn't even noe u all the first time i saw u all below chinablack. If ur blog can even tok abt me in Sept 6... it is obvious that who started all this shit. u tok about me n daryl in the lift too... n my fren was there... u bloody bitch. u even pointed at me outside the call centre n tott i did not see ur bloody finger n told everyone about me... n frens made it even more obvious when they said "who saw who saw". n if u dun want me to tok abt ur fren... den please tell ur fren to stay out of this... n dun tok about me in his blog. i had enough of ur fucking nonsense... and i seriously hope this will stop. Leave me alone n i will leave u alone. If u dun wanna stop... den dun blame me for being mean. I am not gonna change my blog address... cuz i am not feeling guilty. Those who delete their blog just announce to the world that they are guilty of all that had happen... trying to erase all evidence... you know what and who i mean.

Haven been blogging for the past 2 days... many things happen... many things discovered...

Went to watch "Flight of the Phoenix" with dearie on wednesday at Causeway point. The show has a good storyline... indeed a worthwhile show. Initially, i tott the show would be boring n i would fall asleep during the movie... but it turns out the other way... i was quite excited during the show. My dear dear today allowed the popcorn to be mixed (Salted + Sweet)... at first i was rather happi... cuz dear dear gave in... n i dun like the salted one while he doesn't like the sweet one. But i noe dear dear wasn't very happi... cuz there were more sweet than salted. Sorry baby.

On this day... found out something that pisses me off. I was thinking if it is so easy to search for someone's blog through Yahoo... cuz from my blogpatrol some people have been searching for my blog through Yahoo. Out of curiosity, i typed "fransca" on Yahoo search engine... next moment a few of my frens' blog and mine appeared... but there was no loveydoveydearie. So i tried "fransca daryl", and guess wat i discover? The slut's blog. What the hell... u think u are the prettiest girl in the entire world... for god's sake... look into the mirror. i didn't even noe u the first day i saw u... n wat right do u have to say that i have attitude. So wat if i dun look outstanding. U think by smiling to my dear in the lift to chinablack will make me jealous... den i think u are freaking childish... u've underestimated me. And oh yah... dun because he held my hand... den u have the right to say that i am a leech... u are just jealous bitch. u dun look very outstanding too... n the fact u were a little drunk... makes it worse. u are such a flirt... with so many ONE SIDED crushes. Hahhaaa... lol... u really think everyone think u look cute. Cute = ugly but adorable. What "A" grade student... first of all it's not distinction... second of all... a A grade stud with lousy bitchy character is nothing to be proud of. I dun wanna pollute my blog with ur nonsense and childish acts. And oh yah... if u think no one looks at ur xanga blog... den u are wrong... u and ur fren... hahaa... i feel so sad for u... who have selfish totts over the same guy... wat kind of frenship is this?

Had to collect the CNY goodies today. Guess wat... lottery is not even so accurate. 7 counters and almost all were free... and i was so fucking "LUCKY"... i hit the jackpot. Moonie was laughing at me also. I had 4 heavy bag full of goodies... wanted to ask Whitey to come school to pick all those up from me... but my unreasonable mum insisted that i either take a cab back home or to her office at Bukit Timah. I wanna go dearie's place. What the hell... CCK and Bukit Timah is so far from Punggol... anyway... no matter wat... i'm still gonna meet dearie... miss him. So i had no choice... but to take a cab all the way to BT and den to Punggol... the cab fare was $27. I stayed over at dearie's place. Dearie's back pain pain... hopefully... it will get better.

Yeah... it's a fun day... full of discoveries today. He's a GAY!!! Omg... 94267826 - ZQ, 42349 - HF and 3726722 - me were reading happily. Their group consist of fagots. Feel so sad for them. I din have any negative totts of the other members of their group as i didn't know them at all. But after reading that load of rubbish... which it's total ridiculous cuz i dun even noe them... and juz becuz i got dearie... den they write such stuff.... dun they think their overboard. Judging a person without knowing the person... cuz i got wat they wanted. They are the ones who are pathetic... so dun say that i am pathetic if u dun know me at all. U are juz a freaking GAY! Yucks! So just fuck off!

After school... went to dearie's place. Tmr... his family is coming back from Thailand to celebrate CNY. So gotta make the house clean clean. Finally... i have washed all my clothes and lingerie that have to be hand-washed. We mop the entire house... clean the windows and glasses... put the curtain nicely... and yeah the house is clean again! Hopefully... when they come back tmr... home sweet home. We went to Mac at CWP to have our dinner. The prosperity burger... the beef one nicer... the chicken one has too much pepper.

It's sandra's burfdae today...

Gonna call dear now... bye... nitez...

Thanks dearies for signing in and out for me almost everyday. Yesterday left school at 4pm and went to dearie's place. We made our way to compasspoint in for dinner.... i was wearing that big baggy SW t-shirt... look so auntie. We ate at KFC... so sinful... i keep saying that i wanna lose weight... but can't control myself. After dinner... went to the supermarket as usual... dearie bought something that raise my curiosity... hmmm... still dun understand y.... but it's okie. We bought some bread from delifrance. Opps... i juz realised i forgot to eat my sultana croissant =( . We were gonna sleep at 3am... but started toking about Bukit Timah... that leads to that !!!!"Samantha"!!!!.... dearie... i'm terribly JEALOUS! ARrrrgGGghhHHh... ANGRY! Bang! She's gone! After that topic... we couldn't go to sleep, only after some time.

Thanks huihui for bringing a jacket and the mascara for me.. love u! Gonna have a long day today... have to work after school... but hopefully can earn a bit more money. I'm dead broke. Haven buy new bag, new accessories, new lingerie, more new clothes. I need $$!!!

Today is fabian's burfdae... wanna wish you a Blessed 19th birthday...

I'm so tired now... wanna sleep so badly. =( It's so bored over at ARDC. Have to submit the sickening proposal tomorrow... dunno how to start... or rather lazy to start.

Shihui juz say... eEeeeRRRggggHhhHhhhhh... mad mad one.

Yeah... hui hui say wanna go eat ice cream... muahhhaahhh.... byebye...

You betray my trust... Y muz u lie to me... I knew it from the very day u blocked me. I should have trusted my gut from the start! I will never believe you ever n ever again! I hate you! I don't regret knowing you but i'll always regret trusting you. You said that u will not lie to me... in ur eyes... i'm a fool. Hamburger face... Baobei doggie all noes the truth! You dun have to wonder who am i referring to... coz u are the one!

My dear agnes is attached today! Hope she'll be happy with him. All the best to them.

Dearie... i miss you... sorry about last nite. I didn't mean to mention it... i couldn't bear to lose you at all. I want you to stay by my side. I want to make you happy. You are my baby. I love you.

Once again hurtful words came outta of our mouths...
Why did god made BOYs and GIRLs differently?
I merely expressed what i was thinking...
I meant no harm...
I held no deep hatred.
To type it out...
to let my vent my anger...
instead it led to a misunderstanding...
how foolish i was.


I can neva make u happy i guess.

The saddest thing is...

3 hrs ago... i typed out a paragraph
about me. *On the left hand corner, on the pic*
1. express my feelings perceptibly
2. wishing that he'll always be happy
Wrong to express my feelings.
Wrong about wishing...
since i can't even make you happy for at least a day.


I AM A BIG FOOL... A BIG ASSHOLE.

Steer clear of emotions,

disguise your every beat.

Escapes of tender care

by pushing away the concrete.

Conceal your heart

as a barrier to your justice.

Misguide yourself by forcing

away your every touch of closeness.

To the broken past,

pieces left dissipated.

A standing out of yourself

never wanted to end up jaded.

A tender heart within

concealed by shadows of divine.

If you would only let yourself

the world would see your shine.

Two broken hearts as one

from the troubled past we grew.

Love between the sacred souls

Telling you how much I Love You.

***

If only i could turn back time for you...

I would...

To lessen the pain we had.

To make you happy...

But i couldn't...

'WORDS of PROMISE'

was all i could provide you with

but it was useless...

"TRUST" and "CARE"...

Are they the same?

I'm so lost...

O Lord...

teach me TRUST

show me the meaning of CARE

***

Baby... thanks for wat've you have done for me.

I understand that it's not easy.

Maybe it seemed as if i wanted it to turn out that way...

but it's reallie not.

I've neva expect you to delete the acct for me.

I noe i can't turn back the time.

But i'm trying to change...

to grow up for you...

I am willing to do anything for you

to make you happier...

I will.

Never wanting to give up on this...

to hold on to you forever...

because I reallie do Love You...

-Tears rolled down her cheeks... it hurtz-

LOVE

New blogskin finally! Hahaa... but i think this skin is not gonna last for long... cuz it doesn't seem suitable for my photos Hopefully... i can find one nice and suitable.

Have been rather busy these few days... have to do applied project and creativity project. The irritating Mr Ho have been pestering us... we have so little time left to do.

1st - blister on my toe for walking to fast to be in time for tep

2nd - the damn drawer at the admin desk in IBRC was opened... i didn't notice it and got scatch quite badly till it bled

3rd - close my thumb in the damn stationary tray drawer when someone was asking for a staple

4th - almost sprain my ankle when walking to north canteen

5th - hit my chin when i was pushing the chair in

6th - almost slipped and fell when leaving IBRC

7th - almost slipped and fell the moment i met dearie at woodlands

8th - grabbed the catus with my bare hands for dearie to see... and the thorns stuck onto my finger... it hurts... and dearie helped me to pluck out the thorn (ouch!) , afterwhich he scolded and laughed at me for my stupidity =(

9th - almost slipped and fell again when going to the computer shop

Oh yah... on my way to school... they was an accident at the road in front of Yew Tee station... someone on a bicycle was knocked down... saw the person lying on the road. Scared scared. Hope the person is fine.

I saw "A--" when i was in North Canteen for breakfast... i hate it when she looks at me... it juz reminds me of the terrible quarrel i had with dearie. But there's nothing i can do... like digging out her eyeballs? So she wun be able to stare at me... and ever look at my dearie. Damn... i hate the feeling of jealousy. Forget it...

But of course... i had hell lot of fun today.

Jiarui n Huihui came to school today to do creativity project with us... so i told Jiarui some of my ideas that i've tott on the way to school... using flash as advertisements (of coz i dunno how to do it... my dearie huihui n jane noes)... thanks to them... den i was thinking of video at first... but didn't noe what to video on... so we were discussing if the video should be serious or funnie... den hui rui n jane say they want hilarious one... so we were thinking so hard... den i tott of interviews... den jiarui elaborate further on the idea... and BINGO... our scripts were written out... with our professional actors... "Kenneth" as the interviewer and "Robin" as the male interviewee. So we started our acts... it was super funnie... hui hui n robin NG quite a number of times bcoz of huihui the mad laughing girl... jane's and moon's interview were the fastest... the interview with Robin and I was the ultimate one... with NGs at leats 10 times... Kenneth n i couldn't resist from laughing... lastly rui had NGs a few times becoz of the brightness. We had lotsa fun doing this!

My happiest moment of the day... when i was with dearie at Woodlands. I was so happy to be with dearie... had lotsa of fun. We went to Pastamania for dinner. I enjoyed toking n joking with dearie...

We went Mos Burger for 2nd round of dinner for dearie. i was telling dearie that he was eating the spicy chilly hotdog so fast... which led to wat huihui, moon n i was toking about today... the cake that moon made for ryan lasted a month... one mouth a day. Dearie said if it was him... he would have finish it within a few mouths. So i told him... ryan look at the cake... and must be thinking about moon's effort before he eats... but if i give dearie... the moment he gets it... he will pop into his mouth without looking at my efforts. Dearie mentioned about Gingerbread which i made... he said he took picture with it b4 eating... den suddely we remebered... that was becoz it was the 2nd gingerbread... i gave him two The moment i gave him the gingerbreads... he opened one and ate... when i turned my head and look at him... he was going to eat the 2nd one... that was when i stop him to take pic. So both of us laughed.

Dearie sent me to Yew Tee Station... on the way there... we were quibbling jokingly about Tiger Airways. Dear dear thanks for the day... i really enjoyed myself... hope we will have more of this day!

When i reach yew tee... so coincidence... my sista was waiting for my dad to pick her up... so i didn't need to take the bus and walk in. I saw a new mitsubishi phone today... with LED... the design was so cool... but it has lesser fuctions from the other model. Stupid com got that no video input prob again. I tried to re-insert my graphic card again and again... for an hour plus... i almost gave up... and it worked at the end!

Gonna sleep soon... nites... my throat hurts now!!!

Juz completed a carebear survey... and see which carebear's character do i resemble... and there was a tie between two carebears...

Pretty much happened today... some ups some downs....

Went to the dental the first thing today. I was 10 minutes late n was the last person for the day. Tighten my braces as usual... and it hurts a little... but still bearable.

Met my belle sista at Raffles Pl... she said she was going to bring me to her fren's place to chill out. So we went to boat quey... but it was in the late noon... at the end we just sit in this small coffee stall... ate our lunch and chit chat a little. After that, she brought me up to her company. When i went into the office... den i saw lots of round tables with many chairs... the first thing that came to my mind was "Omg... dun tell me she gonna make me go through the network marketing which is somewhat similar to the pyramid thing... please dun." Then she began to intro me to all her colleagues... and told them that i was her real lil' sis... hahaa... some actually believed. I was rather shy... so everyone was asking y i seem so shy... hahaa... den she laugh n say... hahaa... they dunno me onli... if not i will make so much noise until u cannot take it. She introduced me to 1 of her colleague... which was one of the managers... den he said later someone will explain to you what your sis is doing here. Oh damn... i knew it. But i went through it... firstly, becoz she's my closest jie jie... secondly, becoz she say that it's gonna be 30 minutes onli. So i juz sat through it... listening to it.... but in my mind i am 100% sure that i will never join... so i juz listen with a open heart. Initially... i was rather pissed... becoz she neva tell me anything about it b4 bringing me up to her company. After the briefing... we went back to the coffee stall to tok. She asked me how i find it... den i told her actually i know about such companies... but i'm not really interested... and cuz i noe my dearie wun like it. So she didn't force me or persuade me any further... i guess afterall she noes me well... that once i make up my mind there's no way to tempt me or persuade me in any ways... juz like smoking... she has been smoking so often heavily in front of me... but she knows that i will never be tempted to start smoking again. Thanks sista! Hahahaa... Cigarette prices went up today again... $11.00 for a pac... when she wanted to buy... i told her the price went up... she was making so much noise about it... and refused to buy at first... she juz turned back to one of her fling n ask for one. But at the end she still couldn't resist it and so resorted to Texas... which was like the cheapest. We took a couple of photos today... and catch up quite a lot and she introduced me to a few of her male friends... she was rather protective of me and didn't allow the guys who wanted noe me to get my number... and of course she noes i'm madly in love with my baby. My dearie is the best in my eyes.... no one else can ever replace him in my heart. My dear sista is still having so many flings... but i noe there's one person on her mind now... her ex Edy... she just realised that all this while... he has been caring for her quietly... but he's got a gf now... but i juz pray that she will find her mr right soon...

After that... i took a a train from clarke quey to dhoby ghaut... wanted to take bus 190 from there. I waited for the bus for 1hr 30 mins... den i remember today had Chingay... so most probably the bus is not on service today. Stupid... there was no notice at the bus stop... many ppl were waiting for the sickening bus. At the end... i took 174 to Bukit Timah... n change to 170... and my dad picked me up at the heavy vehicle carpark behind my estate.

Dear dear... i wanna tell you that i'm really sorry. I didn't mean to say those words that hurt u... my intention was not that... i could neva bear to leave you. You are the one i am with... you are the one i wanna be with. I dun blame you for not being able to go gym with me... cuz i noe it's not ur fault. So please dun take those words to heart. I promised you i will never say such a thing anymore. Please dun be mad at me... if not i'll neva forgive myself. Baby... I love you...

Omg omg... i'm like so excited n happy now. I'm gonna blog the second time. Hahaa... my com is not spoilt!!! My dearie... brought back home n clean everything for me... n re-insert the graphic card. He tried it using his own monitor... and it worked! At first i was so afraid that the fault lies with my monitor. So we didn't bring it to sim lim. I juz took a cab home from dearie's place with the my cpu. And i juz fixed back everything. At first... it couldn't work... cuz i connect to the wrong graphic card... i almost gave up... den i tried another connection. OMG! I was so happy when the "No Video Input" didn't appear when i start the com! Omg! Omg! Omg! HahahahahahaaaaaHahahahaaaaHahahahahaHaaaaHAhaaa.... I am sooooooo HAPPY! I can edit my photos using my own com again!!! YAY YAY YAY!!!!

I'm going crazy now!! Whahahahahaa! WoooooHHhoooO!

I'm sooooo happy for dear dear too!!! Dear dear's X-BOX is repaired!!! The repair cost was below $50! The hard-disk was reformat... n it was fixed! Hahahaaa. Dear dear can play on the x-box oredi! Sponge Bob Square Pants!!!

We went to Tampines to collect the X-box in the noon. After that... we had our lunch & dinner at Sakae Sushi. Stupid auntie didn't see where she walk... she was swinging her hands like no one business... n hit my precious part below... summore act like nothing happen... n juz walk away. Dearie got so pissed n scolded her coz she didn't even bother to apologise... and worse of all... she didn't hear. I was so scared... cuz dearie wanted to confront her the second time. I stopped dear dear... luckily i manage to persuade him.

It's a happy day!

Went back today to school for MMD lesson... it was like so dumb... we had to go back to sch juz for this... and it was teaching the same stupid thing as last week... anyone will noe how to do it without going to the lesson... such a waste of time. Sorry dearies... for being so late again for the creativity project. Supposed to brainstorm about how to increase earlier marriages n birth rates.

After the lesson... moon n i took the train to orchard... she was going to meet her darling ryan... n i was gonna meet baby. We went to crumpler to check out about the stripe... n to see if there was any nice bigger bag. Yay... the stripe can be fix. We went to Borders... n i heard the "Rich Girl" song... it couldn't get out of my mind... keep disturbing dearie with the song.

Dearie n i watched "Hide & Seek" at Lido at 5.30pm today... while moonie n ryan watched at 4.50pm at PS. I feel that the show is much niceeeer than "Constantine".

During the show... there was this bunch of monkeys right behind us... they can't behave properly... made so many noise... keep laughing loudly... when it's not even funnie. It was so freaking irritating. I was so irritated... so dear dear turn back and scolded them... "Can you please lower down!"... I was a little frightened... cuz dearie was so fierce. But they kept quiet after that. Den again... they took revenge by kicking our seats... but i didn't dare to tell dearie... cuz i noe he will flare up. The worse thing is... they are girls... don't they noe wat is manners when watching movie.

We walked to PS after the movie. I'm at dearie's place now...

I'm back home so early today... i'm so bored now... having a headache... the freaking weather is killing me. Dear dear said that the grass are all dying... hee... but it's true. Went back to school today for the customer service test.

Yesterday dearie n i went to Century Square n Tampines Mall to send his X-Box for repair. Hopefully the x-box can be repaired... if not baby will be so upset. We walked around for a while... wanted to go to Swensens for dinner... but it doesn't have a branch there. So we took 969 to Causeway point... the journey was so long. We had our dinner at Swensens... i had breaded chicken set while dear dear chose the cheesy beef burger... we also ordered Calamari... didn't dare to order onion rings again due to the awful pizza hut onion rings. Yay... we had ice cream... i ate the coit tower... but didn't finish it cuz i was so full.

We bought "Lost in Translation" vcd back to watch. Dearie stayed over at my place. I was so surprise that i could concentrate on studying for the CS test... hahaa... tt's because my com is spoilt. After that we watched the vcd... the actor was so emotionless... the movie hardly have music... rather monotonous... lucky dearie was with me.

Dear dear sent me to school today... n brought my cpu home... thanks baby. I reallie appreciate it... thanks for being so thoughtful... afraid that the stuff will be too heavy for me.

Yay... gonna edit some photos... hope i'll have some inspiration...

It was v'dae yesterdey...

baby, dearies n friends...

hope it's not to late to say...

Dearie brought me to East Coast yesterday. On the way there... we alighted the bus at Katong to have Katong Laksa as lunch. Dearie bought Char Siew Pau from 'Pau-Dian'. When we were having the laksa... the lion dance troup came into the shop... I was a little scared... cuz it was so loud. When we were going to pay for the meal... the lady was so shocked with the amount of coins we have... and asked us to change with her... dearie had over 30 dollars worth of coins... paid $9 for the meal n changed $20... all in coins. Hahaa.

We made our way to East Coast after lunch. We rented the double bike and cycled for 2 hours. Dear dear... thank you for fulfilling another wish of mine... I had fun cycling with you. We went to Mac after returning the bike... yay... finally got to eat curly fries... and we ate strawberry sundae. We took bus 16 back to Dhoby Ghaut. We went to Carrefour... wanted to buy ingredients back to cook... but we didn't know what to cook for dinner. Later... we wanted to eat Pizza... but the queue at Pizza Hut n Pasta Mania was so long at PS. At the end, we made our way to Seng Kang Pizza Hut. We ordered the Rich Gold Crust with Super Supreme topping... ordered Onion Rings as Add-On. The rich gold crust had this sweet sweet part that doesn't blends well with the pizza.... so we always digged it out... hahaa. The first basket of onion rings brought to us was cold soft n soggy. So we asked for a change... the second basket was no where better... it was burnt n so we could only taste the burned taste. =( The Burger King onion rings taste much better. Dear dear and I was so fed-up with the onion rings... but we still laughed at it.

Dearie Huihui... dun worry Terrence won't be sad... just let him know you are happy to receive it... and it's the heart that counts. The white roses are very nice... though the bouquet is abit small. It's the stupid ppl's fault to deliver the wrong bouquet.

The day before v'dae... huihui and i went to Orchard to get presents. It was so fun. We went to "Shang Mian de Nan Ren"- Topman. After that we made our way to Far East. On the way there, i saw this gurl with a great slim figure... i was staring at her with great admiration... den i told huihui. Huihui scolded me siao when the girl n her boyfriend was approaching... i didn't notice the guy... suddenly the guy lifted his hands n waved at me... i was so shocked... den i look up n it was Don. Huihui n I broke into laughter like mad. Omg... i think he saw me staring at his gf... so embarassing. We went to "Pang Bian Zou" - Sidewalk. I was so sad... cuz the nice nice shirt with a japanese girl illustration was sold out, I wanted to get it for dearie. Argh! There was not much designs left. We left Far East n went to Pacific Plaza. I saw this top at Adidas... $79... it was quite nice. Den we went to Stussy n Rip Curl... but found nothing nice. We made our way to Taka... went to Guess... saw this shirt which was quite nice... $1o5... dut it doesn't look that price at all. Huihui like this long sleeve top there... which i think was very nice too... but Terrence don't like... n i can't buy cuz Dearie doesn't wear long sleeve. We went to Zara... but found nothing. Den we went to Armani Exchange... Terrence like a jacket from there... it cost $179... huihui was considering... but again it doesn't look $179. We were in a dilemma cuz we couldn't find anything that we found perfect at that time. We met up at 3.30 n it was 7pm oredi. We went to Wheelocks... cuz i remembered dear dear wanted a Crumpler bag... but it doesn't have the design dearie wanted anymore. The person adviced me to try 77 street. I went to the 77 street at Heerens... but there wasno crumpler bag. So we walked all the way back to Far East... both the 77 street branches doesn't have also. Later we found out that all the braches don't sell it anymore. We went back to Sidewalk twice again... at the end Huihui bought 2 tops for Ter. I still couldn't find anything. I began to panic. So we went back to Adidas... took a 2nd look at that tee-shirt... but it doesn't look as nice as the 1st look. Moreover there was no more size S and M available. Oh no! I was thinking so hard wat to buy, wanted to buy kitchen appliances for dearie... but i couldn't remember which was the one he wanted. So we went back to Crumpler... at the end, i bought a bright green crumpler bag for dearie... hoping that dearie will like it. But i now think the bag size not suitable=(. Huihui and I shopped for the presents like mad... after that we had to buy a box to pack the present... so we went back to Taka... and took more than 30 minutes to decide on the packaging... hahaa... we were mad about the "ribbon" thingy.

I got a B for my FSRC stopover... there only 3 people in the stopover had an A... Weiling, Paeyung n Shiyun... the goody ones. I went to get my results with Hwa Qi, Weiling, Shiyun n Andy. After that we wanted to go to North canteen... on the way there... I broke the strap on my saddals (1st sway). The first tott that came to my mind was "Oh no... going out later... how?" I called dear dear to check if i had leave any pair of shoes at his place... but dun have... which means that i either had to buy glue or buy a pair of new shoes. I called Jiarui to come out to the corridor to walk back with me. Hahaa... den she help me cry.

After we went back to the room... i flunk my shoes to the wall... i touched the chair behind me... right behind my knee... i lowered myself towards the chair... "MAGIC!"... 'e chair moved away... hoho... i fell on my ass onto the ground (2nd sway). The amazing magician... "KHEE JIARUI". She was soooo mesmerized by Zhao Quan n the majong... that she pulled the chair behind her away without looking... to sit nearer to him. Sob... she rather look at Zhao Quan than to take a look at me. Nvm... i forgive u dearie. Next time u better look at me more than look at Zhao Quan. The lesson is... "Dun ever play musical chair with Jiarui".

Robin was so nice... he offered to staple the strap back to the saddals for me... so it could at least last me till i get a new pair... Thanks Robin. I left the school at about 4pm with Moonie. She went to Bishan with me to get a new pair of shoes. I bought a pair of new shoes from Charles and Keith. She brought the spoilt one home for me. Thanks Moonie.

After that, i went to Toa Payoh to take 145 to meet dearie near Golden Mile. Had dinner with dearie n his family. I was very upset with myself yesterday... cuz i made several mistakes yst. Sorry dear. We went to the Thai Market... den almost everything was in thai. After that, we took a cab back... alighted at Punggol Plaza to get something n walked back to dearie's place.

Today dearie's family going back to Thailand. After that we gonna watch "Constantine" at PS... hope it's a nice show.

dearies... Happy Lunar New Year... it's the 2nd day of CNY. Hope everyone had fun n managed to receive lots of ang bao yesterday. Tmr have to go back to sch for tep... boring. I can't wait for saturday 'e 12th... dearie... it will be our 5th month anni... and monday 'e 14th... it will be our first v'dae together. Haven't get the pressie... but i think i noe wat i wanna get... have been aiming for it since dunno when... hope still have... maybe this weekend i shall go get it. Yay... it's my block leave next week... which means that i dun have to wake up so early. I'm at my cousin's place now... using his com. The adults are all playing majong outside. It's pretty boring over here... not much thing to do. Dearie dun wanna come... even more bored... sad sad =(. Yesterday went to 3 places... my grannies' hse from both my mum n dad's side... den went to dearie's place rather late. My mum's bro-in-law sent me there... so thankful for dat... cuz it's so far away from my granny hse. After dat dearie sent me to Woodlands... thanks baby.

Hey sorry dearie and friends... it's abit troublesome to view my blog now since i've set a password... anyway... it's my mobile phone number. This is because there is group of bitches who have been creating a hell lot of mess in my life. I dun wanna change my blog address as i noe u all would have to change the link on your blog again. And it's useless anyway... cause they will find the new address easily. And of course i won't delete my blog like them. Sorry for the inconvenience caused. Yea... my blog is only meant for me to keep an online diary as well as for my dearie and my dear frens out there to read.

And dearies... please dun be affected by what those bitches typed on the blog... u all are never sucky. You all are the greatest frens God have given me. It only goes to show how shallow the person who wrote that is, it's a shame that sr have such a fren. I'm sorry to cause such comments on u all.

Sigh... i seriously hope this will end... feeling really really exhausted n sick from all the nonsense they've created. I hope they can never find out my hp number. So i suppose... my hp number is very precious and confidential now. Next, they'll be hunting for my hp number. I probably have to change my password now and then.

Wanna wish you all a Happy Chinese New Year. Hope u have enjoyed ur family reunion dinner. Well... it has been a long time since i went to my granny's place. I saw my cousins... omg... they have changed so much. I remember the last time i saw my little cousins... they were still crawling... now they can walk and talk so well. Hahaa. I had fun with my little cousin... she's so cute... simply love to disturb her.

Tmr is the first day of CNY... gonna go to my granny's place. All of my relatives are gonna be there. Actually... i hope dearie can come along with me... but i think he has to visit his relatives too. =( Nvm... hope he will enjoy all his visits also.

Argh... i typed a long blog yst... but in the process... my internet connection got prob... so the entire entry is gone. I was too lazy to retype.

On Sunday... dearie had floorball game in the morning... i went to the salon to have my hair trimmed. After that, i made my way to Bugis... went to Bugis St, but couldn't find anything nice there. So i went to Bugis Junction... i saw this nice pink poka dots bra... but didn't buy cuz the matching bottom was sold out... i was so sad. Den i saw Don at POA again... he asked "What happened to your hair?"... so i replied "Cut la"... den i say "Y"... he lauff and said i look like ah lian now. So sad. I went to get the nude bra... it was not the colour and size i wanted... but i had no choice cuz the one i wanted was sold out. After that i continued to search for my purple top... i found this top from m)phosis... rather nice... but the price was $61... so ex... so i didn't get it. I went to Adidas... haha... i saw a bag... n was thinking how to match... so i found a top from there too... yea... so i bought both the bag n the top... $100 gone... heartache. I couldn't shop n spend anymore after that. I went to Tampines to wait for dearie... he was refereeing the game. I stood outside the courts for about 30 minutes... didn't dare to go in... cuz everyone was in sports attire while i as wearing a tube n in my nuah nuah levis... n there was so many in-neh-neh... so i was a bit scared. Later... i pluck up my courage n walked in... den the sickening in-neh neh winked at me... so i quickly walked toward the floorball area. I stood at a corner n look at dearie for more than 30 minutes but he didn't realise.. i could see that he was concentrating so hard. After the match... we went back to his place. Had dinner with his family. I stayed over at dearie's place that nite. His parents bought me a pink bag... sweet sweet... but very ex... so i feel a bit 'paiseh'. Thanks so much... dearie, his stepmom n his dad. I was late again as usual the next day. Thanks to my dearies who helped my sign in everyday. I couldn't wake up... i was so tired. The tv alarm... the phone alarm... my human alarm (my dearie)... all couldn't wake me up. Something happening happened in the train on the way back home.

watever u wanna tag... it doesn't bother me... cuz everyone noes who started all this shit. If u n ur frens did not insult me in ur blog in the first place... all this wouldn't have happen. I only got to noe who u all really are in december... i didn't even noe u all the first time i saw u all below chinablack. If ur blog can even tok abt me in Sept 6... it is obvious that who started all this shit. u tok about me n daryl in the lift too... n my fren was there... u bloody bitch. u even pointed at me outside the call centre n tott i did not see ur bloody finger n told everyone about me... n frens made it even more obvious when they said "who saw who saw". n if u dun want me to tok abt ur fren... den please tell ur fren to stay out of this... n dun tok about me in his blog. i had enough of ur fucking nonsense... and i seriously hope this will stop. Leave me alone n i will leave u alone. If u dun wanna stop... den dun blame me for being mean. I am not gonna change my blog address... cuz i am not feeling guilty. Those who delete their blog just announce to the world that they are guilty of all that had happen... trying to erase all evidence... you know what and who i mean.

Haven been blogging for the past 2 days... many things happen... many things discovered...

Went to watch "Flight of the Phoenix" with dearie on wednesday at Causeway point. The show has a good storyline... indeed a worthwhile show. Initially, i tott the show would be boring n i would fall asleep during the movie... but it turns out the other way... i was quite excited during the show. My dear dear today allowed the popcorn to be mixed (Salted + Sweet)... at first i was rather happi... cuz dear dear gave in... n i dun like the salted one while he doesn't like the sweet one. But i noe dear dear wasn't very happi... cuz there were more sweet than salted. Sorry baby.

On this day... found out something that pisses me off. I was thinking if it is so easy to search for someone's blog through Yahoo... cuz from my blogpatrol some people have been searching for my blog through Yahoo. Out of curiosity, i typed "fransca" on Yahoo search engine... next moment a few of my frens' blog and mine appeared... but there was no loveydoveydearie. So i tried "fransca daryl", and guess wat i discover? The slut's blog. What the hell... u think u are the prettiest girl in the entire world... for god's sake... look into the mirror. i didn't even noe u the first day i saw u... n wat right do u have to say that i have attitude. So wat if i dun look outstanding. U think by smiling to my dear in the lift to chinablack will make me jealous... den i think u are freaking childish... u've underestimated me. And oh yah... dun because he held my hand... den u have the right to say that i am a leech... u are just jealous bitch. u dun look very outstanding too... n the fact u were a little drunk... makes it worse. u are such a flirt... with so many ONE SIDED crushes. Hahhaaa... lol... u really think everyone think u look cute. Cute = ugly but adorable. What "A" grade student... first of all it's not distinction... second of all... a A grade stud with lousy bitchy character is nothing to be proud of. I dun wanna pollute my blog with ur nonsense and childish acts. And oh yah... if u think no one looks at ur xanga blog... den u are wrong... u and ur fren... hahaa... i feel so sad for u... who have selfish totts over the same guy... wat kind of frenship is this?

Had to collect the CNY goodies today. Guess wat... lottery is not even so accurate. 7 counters and almost all were free... and i was so fucking "LUCKY"... i hit the jackpot. Moonie was laughing at me also. I had 4 heavy bag full of goodies... wanted to ask Whitey to come school to pick all those up from me... but my unreasonable mum insisted that i either take a cab back home or to her office at Bukit Timah. I wanna go dearie's place. What the hell... CCK and Bukit Timah is so far from Punggol... anyway... no matter wat... i'm still gonna meet dearie... miss him. So i had no choice... but to take a cab all the way to BT and den to Punggol... the cab fare was $27. I stayed over at dearie's place. Dearie's back pain pain... hopefully... it will get better.

Yeah... it's a fun day... full of discoveries today. He's a GAY!!! Omg... 94267826 - ZQ, 42349 - HF and 3726722 - me were reading happily. Their group consist of fagots. Feel so sad for them. I din have any negative totts of the other members of their group as i didn't know them at all. But after reading that load of rubbish... which it's total ridiculous cuz i dun even noe them... and juz becuz i got dearie... den they write such stuff.... dun they think their overboard. Judging a person without knowing the person... cuz i got wat they wanted. They are the ones who are pathetic... so dun say that i am pathetic if u dun know me at all. U are juz a freaking GAY! Yucks! So just fuck off!

After school... went to dearie's place. Tmr... his family is coming back from Thailand to celebrate CNY. So gotta make the house clean clean. Finally... i have washed all my clothes and lingerie that have to be hand-washed. We mop the entire house... clean the windows and glasses... put the curtain nicely... and yeah the house is clean again! Hopefully... when they come back tmr... home sweet home. We went to Mac at CWP to have our dinner. The prosperity burger... the beef one nicer... the chicken one has too much pepper.

It's sandra's burfdae today...

Gonna call dear now... bye... nitez...

Thanks dearies for signing in and out for me almost everyday. Yesterday left school at 4pm and went to dearie's place. We made our way to compasspoint in for dinner.... i was wearing that big baggy SW t-shirt... look so auntie. We ate at KFC... so sinful... i keep saying that i wanna lose weight... but can't control myself. After dinner... went to the supermarket as usual... dearie bought something that raise my curiosity... hmmm... still dun understand y.... but it's okie. We bought some bread from delifrance. Opps... i juz realised i forgot to eat my sultana croissant =( . We were gonna sleep at 3am... but started toking about Bukit Timah... that leads to that !!!!"Samantha"!!!!.... dearie... i'm terribly JEALOUS! ARrrrgGGghhHHh... ANGRY! Bang! She's gone! After that topic... we couldn't go to sleep, only after some time.

Thanks huihui for bringing a jacket and the mascara for me.. love u! Gonna have a long day today... have to work after school... but hopefully can earn a bit more money. I'm dead broke. Haven buy new bag, new accessories, new lingerie, more new clothes. I need $$!!!

Today is fabian's burfdae... wanna wish you a Blessed 19th birthday...

I'm so tired now... wanna sleep so badly. =( It's so bored over at ARDC. Have to submit the sickening proposal tomorrow... dunno how to start... or rather lazy to start.

Shihui juz say... eEeeeRRRggggHhhHhhhhh... mad mad one.

Yeah... hui hui say wanna go eat ice cream... muahhhaahhh.... byebye...