Saturday, October 29, 2005
Hey!
I'm home alone in HK...
d house is in a mess...
i can't really be bothered.
It's d first time i'm travelling alone...
So far so good...
I'm enjoying it!
Eat sleep shop at my own pace own limit...
It's my 3rd day here...
Day 1...
Arrive in Hong Kong...
Took a cab to the apartment...
Goodrich Garden at Leung King...
d cab fare is freaking ex... HKD$180 = SGD$40.45
Shower... and sleep...
Day 2...
Exercise at 7.30am
Prepare for shopping spree...
Took 58M to Tsuen Wan MTR station...
Top up octopus card and bought my prepaid card.
Took d train to Tsim Sha Tsui...
Shopping begins here!
Shop till 8 pm plus...
Took 260x back home.
Change up...
Had dinner at a restaurant...
American Medium Rare tenderloin...
Went to a pub at Gold Coast
Day 3...
Shopping at Tsim Sha Tsui continues...
Bought loads of stuff...
Within 2 days... i spent SGD$500...
i still have one week more here...
how how....
will money please drop down from d sky...
fortunately have house here...
save on accomodation expense.
Shop till i drop...
d entire day again...
till 9pm...
Problems encounter:
- have difficulty finding toilets
- cant understand a single bit of cantonese...
- can't read chinese words
- didn't understand what is 9 zhe... ... 90%... means 10% discount... haha... LAUGH * chinese sucks*
- sickening CHINA people... push and push... keep hitting my head with the clothes... no one snatch with her... dunno what's CHINA people fucking problem. d lady who was a hongkonger beside me was also freaking pissed... each time i move one step inner d stupid CHINA ah soh action even bigger... hit my head again and again... i couldn't take anymore it till i said... " Ni ke yi bu yao tui mah!" (Can you not push!) d lady beside me laughed at d china auntie... cuz d auntie apologised... "Ok. Dui bu qi." (Sorry). Idiotic CHINA auntie... think i small den can bully.
Going to try and pack my stuffs now...
Bye~
11:29 PM
Thursday, October 27, 2005
I've not been updating my blog regualarly...
Time is spent on my lovely daily gym routine...
Think i'm getting fatter back again...
I really need the pills to control...
but i'm short of $$.
Flying off to Hong Kong in 3 hours' time
on my own...
hopefully everything will go smoothly...
and that i can find all my ways on my own.
Dear girls...
Janice: Sorrie for not spending time with u the past 2 weeks... wait for me to be back kiez... and we'll hit the clubs like usual... miss ya dearly babe.
Gina: Gurl... be a good ger kiez... will catch up with u when i'm back. Take care ar.
Joreen: Dar-rie... sorry for not being able to celebrate your birthday with u... Wish u "Happy 20th Birthday" in advance first kiez. Love u my dear. Mucks!
Michelle.Stella: I promise i'll club with u 2 when i'm back kiez... we'll have loads of fun crazily... Wait for me!!! Enjoy your Holloween night.
*//Lil' girl misses you loads... where are u?//*
3:14 PM
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
8th October 2005 
4:35 AM
Monday, October 24, 2005
All i feel now is PAIN...
my skin is burnt...
my navel pierce is infected...
I can't do anything properly.
My face is peeling...
it makes me feel ugly.
Overslept on Fri and ended up taking a MC...
Went for a tan at the sports complex...
And made my way to Yishun...
went to a clinic...
did threading for upper lip
and finally bought the plastic for body wrap!
I am so burnt...
i used up half a bottle of hazeline snow...
and half a tub of body whip from natural source.
On sat... stella and i had to go to sentosa for d ____
I look like a cooked lobster...
Made a new friend... Adeline... she's hot.
By the end of the day...
I looked like an over-cooked lobster.
I wanted to go Zouk that nite...
on my way... dar-rie say it's not fun there...
so I took a cab down and pick her and ryan up...
den we headed to Momo.
Finally met up with that immature freak...
that end up got angry and almost got into a fight...
he claimed that the group of handsome guys shoved him after they got to know me...
com'on it wasn't on purpose... we all know it...
why create such an ugly scene at d club...
if he can't fucking take it...
den don't say you wanna see me...
because i don't even want to talk to you.
and d truth is... i don't even need you to send me home...
because i have other friends waiting for me... get it?
It's your own choice... I didn't ask you to come in the first place...
so don't be so childish and get jealous over such matters...
simply because you are nothing to me,
i repeat N-O-T-H-I-N-G.
d only reason y i bothered to waste my breath and talk sense into you head...
is because i care about her and him...
i don't want you to drag him in in any circumstances and make her upset...
so get the idea into your head...
and grow up for your own sake.
Thanks to humbert and jiahao who came all the way to Bukit Timah to look for me...
brought me for supper and sent me home...
after all that shit with that immature freak.
Thanks dar and her darling for making my nite a fun one!
Gonna miss ya lots when i'm alone in Hong Kong...
Wait for me kiez... i'll be back soon...
10:38 AM
Monday, October 17, 2005
It rained d entire day...
Made my way to Orchard to meet up with Stella & Michelle...
before we head to sunset bay together.
d rain did not stop...
so we had to wander around in taka...
waiting for a reply to inform us if d ___ is still on.
In d end, had to postpone it to next Sat...
Stella drove us back to her place...
and dolled ourselves up.
After that we went back to Orchard Heerens...
and had our dinner at Sakae Sushi...
Shopping spree time for us!
Couldn't control myself again...
bought a new bikini from tannlines...
a top from chaos...
a nice new belt...
and some little things here and there...
I spent $250 altogether unknowingly.
Almost one month's allowance or rather half of my pay gone within a few hours.
*... i've got no money for shopping in HongKong.
I think i need a *robert* urgently...
Will someone please send me one asap?
After shopping...
Stella went off to meet her friend...
I decided to meet up with Wilson
since he asked me out for coffee.
Furthermore, he's driving...
Michelle came along with me... *grin*.
We went to Mr Bean...
i love my strawberry flavored ice tea.
Stella came to join us there...
Wilson sent d 3 of us home...
stop 1: Yio Chu Kang
stop 2: Bishan
stop 3: Choa Chu Kang
5:08 PM
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Hangover.
Momo last nite with 3 sexy babes...
Stella.Janice.Michelle.
Somehow...
we can never reach d dancefloor together...
friends pulling us from out of no where...
and we start splitting up all over again...
they are far... far too hot...
just too hot for any guy to resist.
Met up with hongjie for supper....
Visited cute little rabbit...
Goin to work soon with my sexy michelle...
d uniform is freaking awful...
Heineken nite...
4:07 PM
Friday, October 14, 2005
Fransca.Gina
12:53 AM
8 October 2005
12:50 AM
08 October 2005
12:49 AM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
I love my top!
2:53 AM
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
I overslept.
Went to d salon today...
Look like a doll now.
Humbert kept laughing at me.
Got to know 2 of his friends...
Jia Hao and Ali...
laughing all d way at Coffee Bean till 11 plus.
Took a train back home...
A journey filled with cutie's presence...
from the head till the end of the train...
glass panels, advertisement banners, and windows were filled with cutie's posters...
there were no other pictures or commercials of any other kind...
emotions stirred up within me...
how can i not think of you...
*//Lil' girl wants to see cutie in real//*
12:25 AM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Just 3 days... i have sooo many things to write bout...
Left my workplace at ubi at 4pm Friday...
and went to work at Sembawang Air Base with my pretty ladies...
It was d airbase's anniversary...
so they held a major celebration...
only 6 of us, Joreen, Michelle, Catherine, Janice, Gina and I were working that day...
serving the entire camp...
and d stupid reason from dat officer was 'budget'...
we didn't need to wear d tiger beer dress...
so all of us wore just black tops and jeans.
After work...
All of us except Catherine headed to party Momo...
we went to Northpoint to changed into our pretty clothes before taking a cab down.
I love girls' nite out...
Had much fun...
Gina and I party till 4am plus...
and went to a friend's place.
Went back to my place at 9 am...
den we had to shower and dress up quickly
and go for d modelling audition for the event....
we didn't have much time...
Gina and I took a cab all the way to Suntec...
On d way... took a lot of photos...
I love them all.
Met up with Joreen, Janice and Sharon.
Michelle couldn't wake up in time.
After d audition...
we shopped around a little...
and went to Kbox...
Janice didn't join us cuz she had to go fer d photoshoot at Orchard
Gerald came along with 4 of us...
Gina left halfway and went fer d photoshoot last minute.
Met up with Jack for a short while...
since he was working at Planet Fitness.
After KTV,
head to Orchard to meet Gina...
It was supposed to be just a chill out session...
In d end.. I couldn't resist the temptation of shopping and clubbing...
bought another top from Forever 21 and went to Momo again!
My feet hurts like mad...
Poor toes... are definitely in pain...
Walking around in high heels serving beer 6-10pm...
Dancing from 12 -4am...
Rush down for d audition in high heels d next morning...
Dancing from 11 plus till 2am.
Fortunately, Gina sent me back with her bf's car.
I love my sexy lovely babes...
I realised i'm beginning to enjoy my fancy-free life...
Because of these awesome girls.
They have indeed made me realised they are...
d ones who understand me and care bout me...
d ones who i can depend and rely on...
d ones who will stay by my side no matter what happens...
d ones who will never abandon me...
d ones who will pull me through in difficult times...
d ones who never fails to bring joy to my heart...
d ones who i care fer and love...
d ones who i put close to my heart...
They are one of d most wonderful things that has ever happened to me
I'm enjoying every bit of my time with them...
p/s: Loads of photos on d way... coming soon!
Why are there people who are sad and despondent?
Because of future... that made them they feel disheartened...
So what cause their future to look so meaningless?
Bacause of d past... that caused them to feel despair.
If everyone just live d present life with no past and future...
perhaps no one will be downcast.
So why not just live life d way it is...
*//Lil girl missing you badly//*
11:39 PM
Friday, October 07, 2005
!@#$% Bloody fucking pervert...
He boldly masturbated right beside me in d bus...
staring right into my top all d way while doing it.
Fucking bastard who wasn't in d right mind...
well probably he doesn't even have one.
Brainless idiot who tot i didn't notice...
that fucking dirty throbbing motion beneath his briefcase.
I clearly saw that he zipped up his pants...
once i move a seat away when d person on my right alighted.
To all fucking perverts out there...
if u wanna do it...
do it discreetly in d gents or somewhere where there's no one else!
GO AND DIE!
9:28 AM
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Just a second?
Stop thinking bout it!
Perhaps i'll feel better...
that's only if i can stop thinking bout it.
*//She's tired//*
Desmond came to pick me up after work...
and brought me to Changi Village for dinner...
Had the notorious Chicken Chop Hor Fun.
After that we went to Changi Beach for a walk...
and sent me home...
1:53 AM
Monday, October 03, 2005
What d hell is wrong with me...
Severe mood swings a fer d past few weeks...
I get agitated at d slightest matter...
Troubled emotionally and physically disturbed...
Feelings of anxiety.... tense and irritable
I have no patience to repeat myself...
I have no tolerance at all...
I hate to explain myself...
i know it's d pills...
i know i can't control...
damn it!
it's causing me great distress...
but no way i'm going to give up.
dear friends... (esp to Janice, Joreen n Gina)
if u see me or hear me throwing my temper...
please forgive me and understand that it's not on purpose...
really... i don't mean to throw tantrum... but i can't help it...
no matter how hard i try... i just can't keep myself calm...
it feels as if the world is crashing down on me.
d dilemma i'm facing is not making things any better...
d troubles at heart are making me more uptight...
can't my mum understand me better...
can't she understand that it's not as if i am happy
whenever some things in my life goes wrong...
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH
*//My messed up life is just like a pile of shit!//*
Will anyone understand?
Will someone make me feel better?
Will any harmless soul pick me up from d deep abyss?
I guess no one else except you...
Because only you can make me smile.
[[*you* - d one who calls me lil' girl]]
***********************************************
The reason i am like this today...
is because of d hurt u've caused...
d irremovable scar u've left...
that made me hardened my heart so much...
so much so that i've lost d orginal me...
that i refused to put myself in others' shoes...
and it becomes d heartless me.
[[it's a different you i'm referring]]
************************************************
8:47 PM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
[[Erdinger]] Brewed for
Oktoberfest... 2 days of work and fun at Oktoberfest in
Swiss Club. Made a couple of new pretty friends at work. d work was quite tiring at times. Had to carry d mugs of beer... entertain those caucasians and put up with their imprudence. I wholly detest those old chinese bastards... thos
e who talk with their hands. We had no choice but to tolerate their absurdity.
Nonetheles
s... i had great fun... working with
pretty sexy crazy babes. I enjoyed d ambience... it was a whole new working experience... an exposure to a different culture, which was different from what we see in Singapore. d caucasians were much more liberal as compared to the chinese.
Went to Attica with Michelle after work. Had much fun clubbing with her... got to know a few of her friends... we managed to get into the member's entry dancefloor after persuading the bouncer to let us in for a while. But we preferred the music at the dancefloor below... so we left the member's area and went back to the table.
Cutie came to pick me up after that...
Things may seem unchanged...
But deep down I know it's no longer the same...
Eluding the issue as much as I could...
He left after seeing me to d gate...
But came back to look fer me...
Had vodka with grapefruit, Kirsh and Williams schnaps
The schnaps were 40% alcohol vol...
Cutie left my place in the morning =)
*//Lil' girl miss you again//*
12:38 PM
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Hey!
I'm home alone in HK...
d house is in a mess...
i can't really be bothered.
It's d first time i'm travelling alone...
So far so good...
I'm enjoying it!
Eat sleep shop at my own pace own limit...
It's my 3rd day here...
Day 1...
Arrive in Hong Kong...
Took a cab to the apartment...
Goodrich Garden at Leung King...
d cab fare is freaking ex... HKD$180 = SGD$40.45
Shower... and sleep...
Day 2...
Exercise at 7.30am
Prepare for shopping spree...
Took 58M to Tsuen Wan MTR station...
Top up octopus card and bought my prepaid card.
Took d train to Tsim Sha Tsui...
Shopping begins here!
Shop till 8 pm plus...
Took 260x back home.
Change up...
Had dinner at a restaurant...
American Medium Rare tenderloin...
Went to a pub at Gold Coast
Day 3...
Shopping at Tsim Sha Tsui continues...
Bought loads of stuff...
Within 2 days... i spent SGD$500...
i still have one week more here...
how how....
will money please drop down from d sky...
fortunately have house here...
save on accomodation expense.
Shop till i drop...
d entire day again...
till 9pm...
Problems encounter:
- have difficulty finding toilets
- cant understand a single bit of cantonese...
- can't read chinese words
- didn't understand what is 9 zhe... ... 90%... means 10% discount... haha... LAUGH * chinese sucks*
- sickening CHINA people... push and push... keep hitting my head with the clothes... no one snatch with her... dunno what's CHINA people fucking problem. d lady who was a hongkonger beside me was also freaking pissed... each time i move one step inner d stupid CHINA ah soh action even bigger... hit my head again and again... i couldn't take anymore it till i said... " Ni ke yi bu yao tui mah!" (Can you not push!) d lady beside me laughed at d china auntie... cuz d auntie apologised... "Ok. Dui bu qi." (Sorry). Idiotic CHINA auntie... think i small den can bully.
Going to try and pack my stuffs now...
Bye~
11:29 PM
Thursday, October 27, 2005
I've not been updating my blog regualarly...
Time is spent on my lovely daily gym routine...
Think i'm getting fatter back again...
I really need the pills to control...
but i'm short of $$.
Flying off to Hong Kong in 3 hours' time
on my own...
hopefully everything will go smoothly...
and that i can find all my ways on my own.
Dear girls...
Janice: Sorrie for not spending time with u the past 2 weeks... wait for me to be back kiez... and we'll hit the clubs like usual... miss ya dearly babe.
Gina: Gurl... be a good ger kiez... will catch up with u when i'm back. Take care ar.
Joreen: Dar-rie... sorry for not being able to celebrate your birthday with u... Wish u "Happy 20th Birthday" in advance first kiez. Love u my dear. Mucks!
Michelle.Stella: I promise i'll club with u 2 when i'm back kiez... we'll have loads of fun crazily... Wait for me!!! Enjoy your Holloween night.
*//Lil' girl misses you loads... where are u?//*
3:14 PM
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
8th October 2005
4:35 AM
Monday, October 24, 2005
All i feel now is PAIN...
my skin is burnt...
my navel pierce is infected...
I can't do anything properly.
My face is peeling...
it makes me feel ugly.
Overslept on Fri and ended up taking a MC...
Went for a tan at the sports complex...
And made my way to Yishun...
went to a clinic...
did threading for upper lip
and finally bought the plastic for body wrap!
I am so burnt...
i used up half a bottle of hazeline snow...
and half a tub of body whip from natural source.
On sat... stella and i had to go to sentosa for d ____
I look like a cooked lobster...
Made a new friend... Adeline... she's hot.
By the end of the day...
I looked like an over-cooked lobster.
I wanted to go Zouk that nite...
on my way... dar-rie say it's not fun there...
so I took a cab down and pick her and ryan up...
den we headed to Momo.
Finally met up with that immature freak...
that end up got angry and almost got into a fight...
he claimed that the group of handsome guys shoved him after they got to know me...
com'on it wasn't on purpose... we all know it...
why create such an ugly scene at d club...
if he can't fucking take it...
den don't say you wanna see me...
because i don't even want to talk to you.
and d truth is... i don't even need you to send me home...
because i have other friends waiting for me... get it?
It's your own choice... I didn't ask you to come in the first place...
so don't be so childish and get jealous over such matters...
simply because you are nothing to me,
i repeat N-O-T-H-I-N-G.
d only reason y i bothered to waste my breath and talk sense into you head...
is because i care about her and him...
i don't want you to drag him in in any circumstances and make her upset...
so get the idea into your head...
and grow up for your own sake.
Thanks to humbert and jiahao who came all the way to Bukit Timah to look for me...
brought me for supper and sent me home...
after all that shit with that immature freak.
Thanks dar and her darling for making my nite a fun one!
Gonna miss ya lots when i'm alone in Hong Kong...
Wait for me kiez... i'll be back soon...
10:38 AM
Monday, October 17, 2005
It rained d entire day...
Made my way to Orchard to meet up with Stella & Michelle...
before we head to sunset bay together.
d rain did not stop...
so we had to wander around in taka...
waiting for a reply to inform us if d ___ is still on.
In d end, had to postpone it to next Sat...
Stella drove us back to her place...
and dolled ourselves up.
After that we went back to Orchard Heerens...
and had our dinner at Sakae Sushi...
Shopping spree time for us!
Couldn't control myself again...
bought a new bikini from tannlines...
a top from chaos...
a nice new belt...
and some little things here and there...
I spent $250 altogether unknowingly.
Almost one month's allowance or rather half of my pay gone within a few hours.
*... i've got no money for shopping in HongKong.
I think i need a *robert* urgently...
Will someone please send me one asap?
After shopping...
Stella went off to meet her friend...
I decided to meet up with Wilson
since he asked me out for coffee.
Furthermore, he's driving...
Michelle came along with me... *grin*.
We went to Mr Bean...
i love my strawberry flavored ice tea.
Stella came to join us there...
Wilson sent d 3 of us home...
stop 1: Yio Chu Kang
stop 2: Bishan
stop 3: Choa Chu Kang
5:08 PM
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Hangover.
Momo last nite with 3 sexy babes...
Stella.Janice.Michelle.
Somehow...
we can never reach d dancefloor together...
friends pulling us from out of no where...
and we start splitting up all over again...
they are far... far too hot...
just too hot for any guy to resist.
Met up with hongjie for supper....
Visited cute little rabbit...
Goin to work soon with my sexy michelle...
d uniform is freaking awful...
Heineken nite...
4:07 PM
Friday, October 14, 2005
Fransca.Gina
12:53 AM
8 October 2005
12:50 AM
08 October 2005
12:49 AM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
I love my top!
2:53 AM
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
I overslept.
Went to d salon today...
Look like a doll now.
Humbert kept laughing at me.
Got to know 2 of his friends...
Jia Hao and Ali...
laughing all d way at Coffee Bean till 11 plus.
Took a train back home...
A journey filled with cutie's presence...
from the head till the end of the train...
glass panels, advertisement banners, and windows were filled with cutie's posters...
there were no other pictures or commercials of any other kind...
emotions stirred up within me...
how can i not think of you...
*//Lil' girl wants to see cutie in real//*
12:25 AM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Just 3 days... i have sooo many things to write bout...
Left my workplace at ubi at 4pm Friday...
and went to work at Sembawang Air Base with my pretty ladies...
It was d airbase's anniversary...
so they held a major celebration...
only 6 of us, Joreen, Michelle, Catherine, Janice, Gina and I were working that day...
serving the entire camp...
and d stupid reason from dat officer was 'budget'...
we didn't need to wear d tiger beer dress...
so all of us wore just black tops and jeans.
After work...
All of us except Catherine headed to party Momo...
we went to Northpoint to changed into our pretty clothes before taking a cab down.
I love girls' nite out...
Had much fun...
Gina and I party till 4am plus...
and went to a friend's place.
Went back to my place at 9 am...
den we had to shower and dress up quickly
and go for d modelling audition for the event....
we didn't have much time...
Gina and I took a cab all the way to Suntec...
On d way... took a lot of photos...
I love them all.
Met up with Joreen, Janice and Sharon.
Michelle couldn't wake up in time.
After d audition...
we shopped around a little...
and went to Kbox...
Janice didn't join us cuz she had to go fer d photoshoot at Orchard
Gerald came along with 4 of us...
Gina left halfway and went fer d photoshoot last minute.
Met up with Jack for a short while...
since he was working at Planet Fitness.
After KTV,
head to Orchard to meet Gina...
It was supposed to be just a chill out session...
In d end.. I couldn't resist the temptation of shopping and clubbing...
bought another top from Forever 21 and went to Momo again!
My feet hurts like mad...
Poor toes... are definitely in pain...
Walking around in high heels serving beer 6-10pm...
Dancing from 12 -4am...
Rush down for d audition in high heels d next morning...
Dancing from 11 plus till 2am.
Fortunately, Gina sent me back with her bf's car.
I love my sexy lovely babes...
I realised i'm beginning to enjoy my fancy-free life...
Because of these awesome girls.
They have indeed made me realised they are...
d ones who understand me and care bout me...
d ones who i can depend and rely on...
d ones who will stay by my side no matter what happens...
d ones who will never abandon me...
d ones who will pull me through in difficult times...
d ones who never fails to bring joy to my heart...
d ones who i care fer and love...
d ones who i put close to my heart...
They are one of d most wonderful things that has ever happened to me
I'm enjoying every bit of my time with them...
p/s: Loads of photos on d way... coming soon!
Why are there people who are sad and despondent?
Because of future... that made them they feel disheartened...
So what cause their future to look so meaningless?
Bacause of d past... that caused them to feel despair.
If everyone just live d present life with no past and future...
perhaps no one will be downcast.
So why not just live life d way it is...
*//Lil girl missing you badly//*
11:39 PM
Friday, October 07, 2005
!@#$% Bloody fucking pervert...
He boldly masturbated right beside me in d bus...
staring right into my top all d way while doing it.
Fucking bastard who wasn't in d right mind...
well probably he doesn't even have one.
Brainless idiot who tot i didn't notice...
that fucking dirty throbbing motion beneath his briefcase.
I clearly saw that he zipped up his pants...
once i move a seat away when d person on my right alighted.
To all fucking perverts out there...
if u wanna do it...
do it discreetly in d gents or somewhere where there's no one else!
GO AND DIE!
9:28 AM
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Just a second?
Stop thinking bout it!
Perhaps i'll feel better...
that's only if i can stop thinking bout it.
*//She's tired//*
Desmond came to pick me up after work...
and brought me to Changi Village for dinner...
Had the notorious Chicken Chop Hor Fun.
After that we went to Changi Beach for a walk...
and sent me home...
1:53 AM
Monday, October 03, 2005
What d hell is wrong with me...
Severe mood swings a fer d past few weeks...
I get agitated at d slightest matter...
Troubled emotionally and physically disturbed...
Feelings of anxiety.... tense and irritable
I have no patience to repeat myself...
I have no tolerance at all...
I hate to explain myself...
i know it's d pills...
i know i can't control...
damn it!
it's causing me great distress...
but no way i'm going to give up.
dear friends... (esp to Janice, Joreen n Gina)
if u see me or hear me throwing my temper...
please forgive me and understand that it's not on purpose...
really... i don't mean to throw tantrum... but i can't help it...
no matter how hard i try... i just can't keep myself calm...
it feels as if the world is crashing down on me.
d dilemma i'm facing is not making things any better...
d troubles at heart are making me more uptight...
can't my mum understand me better...
can't she understand that it's not as if i am happy
whenever some things in my life goes wrong...
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH
*//My messed up life is just like a pile of shit!//*
Will anyone understand?
Will someone make me feel better?
Will any harmless soul pick me up from d deep abyss?
I guess no one else except you...
Because only you can make me smile.
[[*you* - d one who calls me lil' girl]]
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The reason i am like this today...
is because of d hurt u've caused...
d irremovable scar u've left...
that made me hardened my heart so much...
so much so that i've lost d orginal me...
that i refused to put myself in others' shoes...
and it becomes d heartless me.
[[it's a different you i'm referring]]
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8:47 PM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
[[Erdinger]] Brewed for
Oktoberfest... 2 days of work and fun at Oktoberfest in
Swiss Club. Made a couple of new pretty friends at work. d work was quite tiring at times. Had to carry d mugs of beer... entertain those caucasians and put up with their imprudence. I wholly detest those old chinese bastards... thos
e who talk with their hands. We had no choice but to tolerate their absurdity.
Nonetheles
s... i had great fun... working with
pretty sexy crazy babes. I enjoyed d ambience... it was a whole new working experience... an exposure to a different culture, which was different from what we see in Singapore. d caucasians were much more liberal as compared to the chinese.
Went to Attica with Michelle after work. Had much fun clubbing with her... got to know a few of her friends... we managed to get into the member's entry dancefloor after persuading the bouncer to let us in for a while. But we preferred the music at the dancefloor below... so we left the member's area and went back to the table.
Cutie came to pick me up after that...
Things may seem unchanged...
But deep down I know it's no longer the same...
Eluding the issue as much as I could...
He left after seeing me to d gate...
But came back to look fer me...
Had vodka with grapefruit, Kirsh and Williams schnaps
The schnaps were 40% alcohol vol...
Cutie left my place in the morning =)
*//Lil' girl miss you again//*
12:38 PM
[[Erdinger]] Brewed for Oktoberfest... 2 days of work and fun at Oktoberfest in Swiss Club. Made a couple of new pretty friends at work. d work was quite tiring at times. Had to carry d mugs of beer... entertain those caucasians and put up with their imprudence. I wholly detest those old chinese bastards... thos
e who talk with their hands. We had no choice but to tolerate their absurdity.
s... i had great fun... working with 
pretty sexy crazy babes. I enjoyed d ambience... it was a whole new working experience... an exposure to a different culture, which was different from what we see in Singapore. d caucasians were much more liberal as compared to the chinese.
