On 24th, we celebrated our 18th mensiversary, as well as xmas.
In a blink, we've been together for 1 and a half years.
I won't say everything have been smooth sailing for the both of us.
Like any other normal couples, we have had our fair share of arguments and fights.
Some big and some small, but I'm glad we've overcome them all to bring us thus far.
Each time we get into a fight... I would hate him for having a incorrigible temper...
but I realised that's all I could hate about him.
Because deep down, there are 32843278478 things I love about him.
I know I am blessed to have dearest dar³ by my side through all the ups and downs.
HAPPY 18th MENSIVERSARY BABY!
AND I LOVE YOU!
And MERRY CHRISTMAS LOVE!Dar suggested going to the church on xmas eve few days back. He wanted to go to city harvest to catch their xmas drama. Initially, I was quite skeptical about going to CHC again cus of my previous experience there. But still, I agreed cus dar havent been to CHC and it's the first time he has suggested going to church after being with him for 1 1/2 years. Moreover, I'm also guilty of denying God for the past 5 years. I remembered the first time dar asked what was my religion, and I answered "I don't know". Because I really do not know what do I believe in now. I got scolded by him because I was wavering between 2 beliefs. So I said, "Freethinker lo.". But I also got scolded. Hmpf. I've been raised in 2 different environments all my life. My mum is a devoted buddhist. But ever since I was 4, I attended Christian schools more than half of my life, from nursery up till secondary. I attended devotions every single morning, weekly chapels, I even joined Christian fellowship as my ECA when I was in primary school, in secondary school i spent every saturday attending GB service, attended countless Christian camps, I wore a cross almost everyday and I even had cellgroup meetings in the wee hours before school assembly. How was it possible that I wasn't being influenced through my life? I said my first sinner's prayer when I was in primary 3. But I was afraid to tell my mum. I don't even remember admitting to her that I was in Christian fellowship, and not to even mention that I accepted Christ. I was sure that I would be brainwash by her at that time. And so I chose to keep mum about my belief. But every time I had to fill in a form which requires me to state my religion, I would always put "Christian". And I have always been very proud of my very very pretty precious moment Bible. However, 5 years ago, I started to hold myself back. Partly because there was no more daily devotions and weekly service, and also because of people who made me lose faith. If you were to ask me now, I would still say "I don't know." Whenever I'm down, I would go to my mum's buddha atar to pray, then I go back to my room and whisper a prayer to God. Whenever I have exams, I pray at the atar before I leave the house, and in the exam hall I never fail to whisper a prayer to God before every single exam paper I've taken in my life. When I feel weird spirits pressing against me in my sleep, I shout
"In Jesus name go away!", when I wake up in sweat, I mumble
a-mi-tor-fou a-mi-tor-fou. I know it sounds funny and it doesn't seem right. That's why dar scolded me and is against my way of wavering in between both. But what am I to do when I don't know which I'm closer to. So I've decided 遂意. I'll decide when the time comes bah. But I would say that attending that drama and short service that day did made me ponder again and I had a strong sense of guilt, especially so when I did not raise my hands when the pastor called for sinners and backsliders to raise. After the service, dar asked me what's backslider... and I told am I am an perfect example of one. lol.
A backslider is a person who once had salvation, but has since turned away from the Lord Jesus to the point that he is now spiritually lost and dead again, just like he was before becoming saved. Dar asked, "Then why you never raise?" I think my answer was, "I don't know." Seriously hopeless and clueless. But I don't mind attending service with dar³ again :)
I think my photos are far beyond backdated. I haven't had the time to blog a proper post for the past few weeks. I haven't even upload nov pics to the com. I've been labelled as the slow uploader by my dear friends. boohooo ="( But I know I'm really slow beyond hope. I'm feeling embarassed to have this post up after sooooo long. Here's halloween pics and joleen's birthday pics.
29th October 2009
The night before Halloween... joleen, desmond, leonard, dar and i had already pre-arranged for outing to night safari. On our way to night safari, it started dizzling. Dar and I was afraid that the rain would get heavier. When we reached night safari, joleen called to ask if we didn't mind the rain and would get the tickets. The rain wasn't that bad at that moment and so we agreed. Merely after we hang up the phone, the rain got heavier and started raining cats and dogs after a minute. It was impossible for dar and I to get out of the car at the open air carpark. We decided to call Joleen immediately for a change of plan. But Joleen had bought the tickets by then, luckily managed to get the tickets refunded cus even the ticket officer understood the situation.
On the way to night safari...
While waiting for Joleen and Desmond to get onto the car...
I suggested going to Spooktacular instead. So I called Agnes to ask if Sentosa was raining cus she was there. She mentioned that it wasn't raining but seems like it was going to. But still we decided to try out luck there. We went to vivocity while waiting for leonard. Had our dinner there.
*feeling hungry now* craving for this prawn noodles!
sickening dar purposely look at me like that, no wonder jol was giggling when she took the pic for us
At sentosa! Walking uphill to Spooktacular...
We were very amazed and frightened by this first "ghost" we saw while taking the escalator.
We queued and wanted to buy tickets but were told that we will be the first to be thown with "SOLD OUT" cus the sickening security officer say he counted that the tickets quota will be up till the 2 girls in front of us. Damn sad. So we could only take pics with those ghosts outside the haunted house for that night. We bought spooktacular tickets for the next day (Halloween night) instead cus we reckon that if we don't buy that night we have to queue the next day again.
Went to wavehouse after that, and we got stuck there cus it started pouring heavily again :( But managed to get a buggy later to send us back to the carpark :)
30th October 2009 - Halloween nightSince we bought Spooktaculat tickets for the night already, we decided to meet up at Sentosa. As usual, desmond n joleen reached before us. This time, they were told that it would take at least 3 hours before our turn to get into the haunted house.
!@#$%^&* That was soooooo WTF. It would mean that we will only be able to get in at 1am! We had a big prob cus we had already pre-arrange a surprise birthday party our dearest Joleen over at Loof and Supperclub. Some of our friends were already waiting there. So we had no choice but to head to Loof directly.
The birthday girl arrived at Loof and was shocked to see everyone there.
The very pretty birthday cake...
Birthday girl
After the cake cutting, dar and I wanted to head back to Sentosa to enter Spooktacular since tickets were already bought. Unfortunately, we called and were told that it was closed already! They told us to return back at 1.30am, but it was closed by the time we called. :( So the 7 tickets went to the waste...
We continued the night over at Supperclub.
Hope the birthday girl had a good time! Love you babe!
That was all for this year's Halloween.
And finally I'm done with october photos!
I have to hit the sheets now!... It's 2.59am! I have to work tomorrow.
((My heart gave in to those kisses, those words, the hair drying process, the dinner treat, the gyoza machine, the marigold jellies... how easily it is to make me forgive and smile. hmpf. I wanted to not talk to you for as long as I could! But that lasted for only a few hours. ))
(( "Thank you" to those who stayed by my side and comforted me last night, to those who tried to help resolve the situation, to those who wiped my tears. Without you all... I can't imagine what would have happened.))
((Congrats to you and gab :) Many blessings to the both of you. Thank you and sorry for the situation last night.))
